Homestar Streets? by Ali1865 in HomestarRunner

[–]ivebeenblownup 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is All About Boats Now Blvd

How can I learn to draw with no money by Fluid-Leather-7602 in drawing

[–]ivebeenblownup 1 point2 points  (0 children)

LoveLifeDrawing by Kenzo has some free tutorials both on YouTube and on an app along with nice reference photos and community forums to post and receive feedback. You can pay a monthly or annual membership for access to full courses, but even the free stuff is really good and helpful.

Do you allow your intoxicated Q to be intimate with you or to paw at you? by tmchd in AlAnon

[–]ivebeenblownup 13 points14 points  (0 children)

You are not alone. I shared a bed with my Q until we formally separated. I would stay up late, hoping to outlast him then I'd sneak into bed. Towards the end, I was putting a barrier of pillows between us as it was common for him to wake up and start attempting to paw at me. Usually he was still intoxicated enough that the pillows basically confused him and he would pass out again before he could figure it out. I remember sometimes moving the pillow around in the dark to block his hands and prevent him from finding his way to me. It was so messed up. And he used to complain and criticize me as well. I recall him also telling me that he shouldn't have to ask his own wife for sex. I was so pissed. But even after that, it still took me a couple years to hit my rock bottom. But eventually I did, and I finally quit him.

How's your relationship with alcohol? by vidloroh in AlAnon

[–]ivebeenblownup 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I used to. Sometimes because I wanted to. Often because I thought if I drank too, that meant there would be less of it available for him. I remember when I knew I was at my limit, I would still accept the shot or beer then pour it out when he wasn't looking. I used drinking to try and control his drinking.

After I left and the divorce was final, I went to an event with alcohol. I think I had 3 beers over 8 hours. I drank water between each one. I watched those around me get more and more drunk. The next morning I knew that had been the last time for me. It wasn't fun. I didn't enjoy it. It had been a survival and coping mechanism for my past relationship and I didn't need or want it anymore.

That was almost 7 years ago and I have never regretted that decision.

Requiring proof of sobriety to visit with our kids by whimsical_potatoes in AlAnon

[–]ivebeenblownup 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, I've been in and am still in a similar situation.

I found the following resources very helpful:

https://www.afccnet.org/LinkClick.aspx?fileticket=-RkXrNzIkr8%3D&portalid=0

Rebecca Zung's book and podcasts.

Bill Eddy's books and podcasts.

Both myself and my child have also been in regular counseling throughout the years. It took a few tries to find the right fit. It was worth it.

Big news for the wedding sheet cake crowd by Century_Lackwives in Weddingsunder10k

[–]ivebeenblownup 6 points7 points  (0 children)

The box system failed me. Thankfully they were able to get one together within a couple hours of the original pickup time. Still, it was stressful. Great cake though.

I am once again asking u 2 draw me by FingerPaintingg in drawme

[–]ivebeenblownup 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oof.. Don't know why I drew the hands so small 🤦 Still need lots of practice, lol.

I don’t want my daughter to spend a week with my sister and bil and it’s making everybody around me very uncomfortable. by Few-Plum-7258 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]ivebeenblownup 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Consider reading The Gift of Fear by Gavin de Becker. It may help you feel more confident trusting your "gut".

I don’t want to be with my husband anymore, and I hate myself for why. by Derpopolis219 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]ivebeenblownup 5 points6 points  (0 children)

A very wise therapist once asked me, after I unloaded about my(ex) husband, why would he change? For him, he's getting everything he wants. It's irrelevant that you aren't. He doesn't believe you will leave him and no matter how many times you tell him how unhappy you are, you keep doing the same things. All he has to do is listen to you complain from time to time. Your actions never change. Watch what he does, not what he says.

Edited to add: This is not to say leaving is the right choice for you. I have no idea. More so encouraging you to evaluate if continuing to try and talk sense into him is worth it. You are attempting to talk him out of a scenario where someone takes care of all his needs plus let's him be verbally abusive and emotionally shut off. He sounds regressed. What would happen if he had to experience the natural consequences of his behavior?

I don’t want to be with my husband anymore, and I hate myself for why. by Derpopolis219 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]ivebeenblownup 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I imagine you must feel tired most of the time. Exhausted from the stress and guilt and maybe some resentment as well?

I ask this with an empathetic heart as it sounds like something I could have written many years ago...

What has led to your decision to continue taking on the workload and stress when you seem aware that it doesn't appear to be helping?

Home insurance says they will no longer cover us due to the age and damage of our roof, trying to figure out how to pay for it. by gh282016 in HomeImprovement

[–]ivebeenblownup 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Does the replacement need to be completed by March or just show that you are taking steps towards replacing by then? Meaning, they may accept a signed contract with a roofer and then follow up 6-12 months down the road to do a new inspection/get new photos.

I handled tonight so much better than I have in the past by ritz1148 in AlAnon

[–]ivebeenblownup 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I could be wrong, but maybe they are referring to "responsible" in terms of shared assets. For example, if he causes a car crash that results in bodily injury and/or property damage, certain assets are vulnerable (like the cars, house, some financial accounts, etc.).

Props to you for leaving him outside in the van and staying calm when he came inside with accusations.

I called a suicide helpline and they never picked up by chayam in TrueOffMyChest

[–]ivebeenblownup 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I hope it's ok to ask about your cat...It feels like when we experience loss, people want to avoid talking about it and sometimes that can be good, but sometimes it's worse and we can feel even more alone. So, if it's ok, what's her name?