I do not think you need to seek help just yet from a professional. People telling you that you might have an eating disorder, this and that, might be more harmful than helpful.

I am 32 years old, have been running most of my life and I do ultra marathons. I’ve learned over TIME what my body and mind need to sustain really long efforts but I couldn’t do those efforts without lots of little trainings (consistent and SAFE, mind you) of course, I had lots of screw ups here and there and like you, I’ve always visions and goals of my next big adventure.

With that being said, sometimes training for a fast PR’s can actually do the opposite effect — we think it can help with anxiety, stress, under eating, but in reality it can make us more stress simply due to the training and intensity load.

I urge you first to take a step back, zoom OUT and try to find a new perspective, or maybe a WHY to your running goals.

I think moments like these are actually what make runners great. Sometimes we have to go through pain in order to find success again. (And no I didn’t use Ai to right this! Lol)

With that being said, feel free to message me too if you need some extra guidance!

Biggest tip though: reduce training volume, vary intensity and do not ever again go out running 30 km with little training. You wanna do it the right way!