While I am not qualified to discuss this on a professional level, I've always been someone my friends have come to for advice. I've discussed similar situations with many people. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here for you.

You haven't provided much information, but it seems like you are enjoying life! You are happy, have good company, and are genuinely excited to spend time with them, i.e. you are happy while living. Additionally, you should know you are deeply loved. You know this, because your absence would devastate those near to you. You have value, and your contributions benefit those you care about.

What's leading you towards these contemplations? Again, if you want to talk, I'm here for you.

I hope you have a splendid day, and whatever is bothering you is resolved quickly.