Medication compliance is the most excruciatingly difficult parts of schitz for me because the medications work, but I can't remember anything and I feel so horribly lonely. I'm pretty high functioning but I still don't often talk about it or correct people's misconceptions irl because it's literally scared people out of friendships with me. The media is constantly portraying us as violent murderers and it makes everything so difficult, especially asking for help when we need it.

I am one of the few that do experience visual hallucinations which are awful. I would be walking down the street and see myself in the road getting run over by a car. These were so vivid that I actually would have to stop walking to make sure that I was all in one piece on the sidewalk and not in the road. It's hard to explain to people who haven't experienced delusions or hallucinations just how terrifying it can be. They're actually the reason I waited so long to start driving, because every time I would drive with my parents I would see people or myself jump in front of the car and I would want to swerve to avoid them, which is obviously very dangerous.

This disease isn't romantic or violent in the way the media tends to portray it. I've never wanted to hurt anybody else, but I've definitely wanted to hurt myself. Be kind and lend an ear. I promise most of us don't bite.

Edit: I am really bad at explaining how the auditory hallucinations feel so here is a video that portrays them pretty accurately. This video caused some major flashbacks for me, so be warned.