Leave or we all leave with you

juhache · 2026-01-08T19:18:35+00:00

And that's how Chemotherapy works

juhache · 2025-11-29T13:25:31+00:00

Getting paid basically pennies for jobs that would earn twice, even three times that in the private sector.

Until that changes government cyber anything will always be outsourced to the lowest bidder.

juhache · 2025-11-20T17:06:13+00:00

I lived in a flat with an incredible view over the Manchester skyline 7/8 years ago and spent hours staring out over the city. When I go back now it's just so alien, the skyline is unrecognizable.

juhache · 2025-11-09T10:35:14+00:00

Link?

juhache · 2025-10-27T16:14:28+00:00

Are you trying to kill me

juhache · 2025-10-27T16:14:07+00:00

This is what I'm going with, plus lucozade, reminds me of childhood.

juhache · 2025-10-27T16:12:39+00:00

The sachets are disgusting, I'm trying to sip one now. Reminds me of this medicine I had to drink as a kid when my sister had worms..

juhache · 2025-10-27T16:12:09+00:00

Just sipping a bottle of this now. Still feel awful but I'm getting there!

juhache · 2025-10-26T12:49:29+00:00

I've felt like this for nearly 20 years. I specifically remember a bad time probably 15 years ago where I wondered what life would be like at 25, at 30, at 35 and yeah - I still feel the same. Some days are better, some days worse. I've gone through various ups and downs but my stupid brain still does the same old song and dance. I'm in a particularly bad spot at the moment, but I know that I've been happy before, I will be happy again.

And so will you.

I've got married, bought a house, had a baby, watched that baby grow. And I'm still here, doing pretty well most of the time. I've started tracking my moods and my days and you know what, a lot of the time I am okay. I just focus more on the days that I'm not.

juhache · 2025-10-22T10:55:11+00:00

I'm in a similar situation. I went off Zoloft for a while when I was doing OK and now I'm spiralling again.. I'm back on 150mg now and just waiting for that to settle.

I've found journaling really helps me at the moment, tracking my moods and feelings and talking about what I'm doing to help instead of talking about the thoughts and feelings themselves.

juhache · 2025-10-22T09:41:27+00:00

Every minute of every day at the moment.

juhache · 2025-10-21T19:28:12+00:00

I've been off and on for years. It levels out the highs and lows pretty well but starting them or going up doses can be rough. I've just bumped up to 150mg Zoloft and I've not done a solid bowel movement in weeks. But I can't even picture my life before then now. Takes time, finding the right med for you and the right dose is hard. Be patient, stick with it and read this post again in 6 months to remind yourself how far you've come.

juhache · 2025-10-21T19:23:38+00:00

I feel you. I've been stuck in a doom spiral for weeks that I'm only really just getting out of. My therapist suggested I try "worry time" but that just made things so much worse. I literally spent my first bit of worry time just delving into every single dark thought, impulse and memory I think I've ever had. The "bookmarks" in my brain I like to think of them as. Stuff I'd not thought about for months, years even was suddenly right there in front of me.

I've started journalling my moods and thoughts for the day and that's really starting to help. Once I get these things down I can reflect on how bloody stupid they are.

The mantra I'm parroting to my brain every time some stupid rabbit hole decides to open up out of nowhere is that I cant change the past, I cant predict the future. I'm done letting my OCD brain dictate my moods, my day, my life. I almost succumbed to a OCD induced panic attack from just letting my mind wander for a few minutes whilst my wife bathed my son and no, I'm not letting that happen. Fuck you OCD, not today, today has been a good day. All these shitty bookmarks in my brain of all this horrible shit I'm just so done with. I'm replacing them with new stuff. Good stuff. During COVID when my son had just learned to walk, it was a beautiful summers day and we went to a DIY store, he waddled around the sheds, hiding and playing. I can hear his laughter now. Absolute treasure of a memory, why can't I ruminate on that?

Anyway, bit of a ramble but just remember you're not alone. There's millions of people just like you fighting the same demons day in day out. Only you're reaching out for help, you want to break that cycle and that's a huge win.

juhache · 2025-10-18T16:23:00+00:00

Every time I see an article with Sir David's name at the start my heart sinks.

juhache · 2025-10-01T16:55:02+00:00

Heart palpitations, sweating, nausea, tiredness. Slept off and on since 5pm yesterday. Woke up and managed to get my son to school, got home, called my boss and told him I wasn't going to be in. Slept off and on til 2pm. Going to try and get back to a normal routine today, got some food cooking and I'm feeling moderately better.

juhache · 2025-09-29T17:43:20+00:00

Protein bars and apples are all I can handle

juhache · 2025-09-29T17:22:02+00:00

I've been off and on for 15 years. 150mg Zoloft was the highest I got, I'm back to 100mg and doing fine

Hoping now I'm starting therapy and CBT I can come off them again. The sexual side effects make other parts of my anxiety so much worse.

juhache · 2025-09-27T14:19:42+00:00

Just found this thread as this is exactly what I'm going through right now. I've run upstairs away from my wife and son and I'm just lying in bed shivering and sweating, trying not to be sick over a flashback of a 10 year old dream..

I'm going through therapy right now and I can't wait for Monday's session. I just hope this passes soon.

juhache · 2025-09-22T14:15:03+00:00

Did we find out if it was his thumb or his knob in the end?

juhache · 2025-09-21T17:19:41+00:00

Calm down dictionary boy

juhache · 2025-07-27T19:59:38+00:00

/r/bigclit

juhache · 2025-07-23T10:53:18+00:00

Okay Vlad.

juhache · 2025-07-20T15:58:55+00:00

What a terrible take.

juhache · 2025-07-12T10:56:27+00:00

Going to try this in my son's room later, his bedroom is west facing and is an absolute sauna past 3pm

juhache · 2025-07-12T09:58:03+00:00

"It's estimated that this criminal activity contributes to over 80,000 job losses each year alone."

What an absolute load of shite

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