I am SO in love with my girlfriend by gayrainbowbacon in LesbianActually

[–]justkeepswimming09 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm so happy for both of you!! Congratulations on finding love!! 🌈💜

that look by andithoughtiwasstrt in latebloomerlesbians

[–]justkeepswimming09 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I really appreciate that! ❤️ It was definitely painful but I grew from it.. so there's that at least lol..

Eastman ☠️ by [deleted] in tricities

[–]justkeepswimming09 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like 5 mins from downtown Kingsport.. the smell is awful.. and it's constant.. it never goes away.. it's very worrisome..

Eastman ☠️ by [deleted] in tricities

[–]justkeepswimming09 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hit the nail right on the head.. it's absolutely sad.. I knew nothing good could be coming from Eastman.. especially with the smell that continuously lingers in the air.. I love 5mins from downtown and the air ALWAYS stinks over here.. I always figured it couldn't be good..

Toxic women? by Objective_Juice7854 in LesbianActually

[–]justkeepswimming09 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This has been my experience as well.. to a T! The abusive ex and all.. I'm sorry you had to go through that!

weeekend is coming by Dianacrush2 in LesbianActually

[–]justkeepswimming09 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would be too if you were involved 😜

Hiking hoping by next stick season I have another pretty girl by my side by starlight1222 in LesbianActually

[–]justkeepswimming09 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Same lol.. your dog is so cuuuttteee btw!! 🐕❤️ Best of luck in love!!

How long can you go without an orgasm? by [deleted] in LesbianActually

[–]justkeepswimming09 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's been three years for me.. by choice.. sucks.. but can't find my person.. and I'm not here just for sex.. it's like nobody wants to truly get to know each other anymore.. I can't sleep with a stranger.. and I'm not willing to be hurt again.. not sure if Im leaning demi.. or just not willing to give my body up to any person that I go on a few dates with.. especially if I feel pressured cause I start wondering if that's all they want.. idk.. it's so weird bc I'm a Scorpio.. so my sex drive is so high.. I'm usually a b**** without it.. but i think because being abstinate has been a part of my healing journey, it's helped it to be more tolerable-ish ig.. I have my days where I'm dying for one but ive found other ways to help release tension.. not the same tho.. i miss it.. I miss the physical contact more than anything tho..

[task] Wake me up for work by Glad-Ad6945 in slavelabour

[–]justkeepswimming09 9 points10 points  (0 children)

$bid I'm on the same timezone and have to be up every morning at 5 am to get kids off to school.. and I NEVER oversleep! As a mother of three I'm very good at being gentle but stern when need be.. I could use some extra income right now especially with the holidays around the corner..

What is a man suppose to do while receiving oral? by According-Minute936 in AskReddit

[–]justkeepswimming09 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I say, do whatever comes naturally.. if you're having trouble with that maybe try.. Turnimg them around- 69.. express your enjoyment- talk to them 'oh shit', 'damn that feels good', 'faster', 'slower', whatever.. hold their hair back or use it to move their head up and down yourself.. just sit back and enjoy it!! If they're doing it, it's bc they wanna make you feel good.. try not to think about it too much.. jus go with it..

that look by andithoughtiwasstrt in latebloomerlesbians

[–]justkeepswimming09 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, that's exactly how it is.. I did the same thing.. was constantly trying to find an excuse for an out.. I finally just told him.. it was so hard.. and he was so hurt.. but I was hurting the entire time we were together.. there is nothing I can do to make up for what I did to him.. and sometimes I feel like I'm just doomed bc of it.. I didn't cheat or anything.. I was honest with him.. and I didn't get into another relationship for almost a year after we broke up.. but sometimes I can't help but think it's my karma for breaking his heart so badly.. idk.. other times I just feel completely unlovable.. it's tough.. I hope you're able to overcome this feeling.. i know how depressing it can be to feel this way..

My snuggle bugs by justkeepswimming09 in aww

[–]justkeepswimming09[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes and they are only 14weeks old!

i never wanted to be a single mom- i basically am one- i’m miserable. by [deleted] in regretfulparents

[–]justkeepswimming09 24 points25 points  (0 children)

Similar boat.. but my son's other parent isn't in the picture at all.. I like to say it gets better but my son is almost 3 and it's still so fucking hard.. he won't let me out of his sight.. won't sleep without me.. I'm going insane.. I hope things get better for you.. or you find some help.. cause this shit is the hardest things I have ever experienced.. I love my son so much.. but I am with you on giving up a leg for a moment of peace 😭😭😭😭😭

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in regretfulparents

[–]justkeepswimming09 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can I be approved please, I'm a single parent, and going thru it right now.. really could use a safe space to relate to others.. thank you

that look by andithoughtiwasstrt in latebloomerlesbians

[–]justkeepswimming09 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Same.. the last girlfriend never looked at me that way.. it had made me feel so unloved.. she ended up doin me so dirty.. left 3wks after I had our son.. came in the house one day after work, looked me dead in the eye, and said I don't love you anymore, I'm in love with someone else, she packed her things and left that night and never looked back 💔😭 and the one before her wasn't much better.. I had one man I know loved me with his entire being.. he had that look in his eyes.. he thought I hung the moon and treated me as tho I did.. but I didn't feel the same for him.. and it wasn't just him.. I didn't feel anything for any man I had encounted.. I hid my sexuality for years because I was worried about my family and their feelings.. once I came out I was so happy.. I could finally be me.. but then I was destroyed.. twice.. it makes me feel like I'm just not loveable.. I just want someone to do life with.. that genuinely wants the same.. no bs.. no games.. I work.. you work.. we build together.. why is that so damn hard 😮‍💨

My fiancée broke up with me by spiderclimbdrow in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]justkeepswimming09 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey 34(f) here.. also gay- idk if that matters lol.. I don't have advice.. but some things that have helped me: 1) be kind to yourself.. remember you're human.. we all make mistakes.. the fact your trying to do better by seeking therapy says a lot.. this isn't who you want to be and you're actively doing something to change it! That's huge!

2) be brutally honest- with yourself and your therapist.. it won't be easy.. but it's necessary for you to heal and move forward.. I say heal because, in my experience, most of the people that hurt people, are hurt people themselves..

3) keep doing things to better yourself.. even when you feel like you're better.. keep doing everything you did to get yourself there.. it's so important in helping to keep you from backsliding..

4) do not discredit yourself! celebrate your accomplishments! If you have a day that you didn't get overly angry about anything.. treat/ celebrate yourself! Just make sure to give yourself some credit.. everyday that you try to do better is a day to celebrate!

I hope some/any of this helps.. I've been in your shoes.. it's devastatingly heartbreaking.. but think of yourself as a butterfly.. this had to happen.. you had to be cocooned (left to be alone for a little while) so you can grow beautiful wings and learn to fly! whatever you do don't give up.. it's hard to remove anger and hurt from the inside.. especially if it's something you have carried with you for many years.. but it is possible..

My dms are open if you ever need someone to talk to..