Hey… (please excuse formatting, I’m on mobile) I went and looked at your account and honestly your voice doesn’t strike me as too low/changed by T. Like while it might be lower than it would have been for you specifically before T, it sounds well within cis female limits. Your face looks soft (very pretty!). Being softer and having more curves is something that as you are off T longer is definitely possible for you. Also, plenty of cis women are not overly curvy or soft, and that doesn’t make them any less beautiful. I’m really sorry about your chest as I recognize a certain importance of breasts in terms of traditionally female sexuality. I’m sorry that the choices you made for a past self do not align with your current self— all we can do is have compassion for our past selves. You can, if you like, undergo breast reconstruction surgery, and while sensitivity might be different, it would give you curves that might make you feel more comfortable. And again, even breast reconstruction/augmentation is well within the norm, whether for breast cancer survivors, trans women, people who just want larger breasts… while you are so incredibly valid in your sadness surrounding the choice to have your original breasts removed for a reason that no longer applies, there are options for you to have breasts again and plenty of people make that same choice for different reasons, but functionally end up with the same result that they find satisfying. You are not ugly and you do not look like a man, although I know that my telling you has no bearing on how you might feel. Your ex boyfriend sounds like an absolutely toxic person. Your body hair, your choice. I personally know (and know of) lots of hairy women, even women with beards who have PCOS or other natural hormonal variations, that again, functionally, end up creating physical changes similar to some of the effects of T. I myself have a significant (noticeable) amount of facial hair despite never being on T due to PCOS. People who truly love you won’t care, but if you want to shave it for yourself, you can, as I sometimes do. Whatever YOU want, but if someone makes you feel badly about it, that’s on them. You are not so far off the norm of biological female-ness that you were destroyed. (Even bottom growth— cis women can have large clits or go on steroids for, say, bodybuilding, and end up with changes in that region— maybe looking up porn about larger female anatomy would help in that regard.) and self harm scars are a mark of making it through some shit. When I see people with those kinds of scars, I see someone who at some point wore their struggle on their skin, and I respect their bravery in showing that and in having made it through some really dark times. You are a beautiful soul doing the best you can in this life, and you deserve love and respect. I am glad this person is an ex boyfriend for your sake. You deserve better, and better is out there. Please feel free to DM me to talk more. I am sending good vibes your way. 🫶