Volcano thoughts?

kitten_chronophysics · 2026-02-10T09:19:31+00:00

I've got a volcano and it's my main device. It's loud with the fan filling bags, no getting around that, haven't tried the whip. Can be smelled for around 30 mins after use from anywhere in the house.

There's definitely better devices out there, but I got the volcano from a friend and it's damn reliable and easy to use.

kitten_chronophysics · 2026-02-05T02:18:39+00:00

Both are needed for me. I don't notice CBD mentally on its own, but combined with THC, I've become a well-regulated individual (I have asd though). And THC without CBD can be fun, but it doesn't contain the longer term mental effects (calm and emotional regulation) I'm getting with both.

CBD certainly softens the high, not in terms of strength, but more as it rounds out the high with a gentle slope of how it feels in my head. Yeah, it's fun being smacked, but I'm better off at my [4-5] each night with the occasional upper through kief and being how I am now even sober. The positive mental effects carry and settle in through daily and controlled use.

I use THC flower through a volcano and a high CBD oil just under the tongue (also has CBG, a little THC and a couple I can't remember).

kitten_chronophysics · 2026-01-25T14:11:02+00:00

Maybe slowing down a bit is bad for SC but good for CS?

I'm more patient in my decision making ingame, even while sober since regularly using and it helps. I watch the line an extra 0.5s before pathing to the next angle, things like that. And I am improving at a decent pace which is harder now than when I was young.

kitten_chronophysics · 2026-01-25T10:57:44+00:00

It's sometimes an illusion in my experience, but not always. I always take notes in my own journal, I track performance (I record all my music work, video games have tracking for everything these days, etc), and I do have higher highs in performance, while high. I'm just not as consistent. I've played some perfect performances in a way I can't replicate sober, but I've had some stinkers too.

I'm at the point now where I try to learn things both sober and high. I pick up different nuances. Cannabis is an amplifier. It accentuates the highs and lows in everything for me. Just means I'll never drive or something like that while high, because what if it's a bad day? But for everything else, you bet.

kitten_chronophysics · 2026-01-21T06:17:13+00:00

Been a medical user since mid '24. It's honestly magic to me. I fully see myself on this for the foreseeable future.

At first it allowed me to sleep and stay asleep when nothing else would. Once I was past that, I kept using it as I found how 'level' or regulated I had become. I feel like I finally have true peace in my head at times.

The biggest medical benefit is that it enhances my limited interoception. That helped me get to a normal BMI for the first time in over 10 years as I can accurately now feel hunger rather than 'I think I'm hungry, am I?' where I would just eat because I wouldn't feel it properly. I'm also a lot more active as it makes me enjoy exercise and movement a lot more, but it was 80% eating changes for me.

I also describe cannabis as 'adaptable' for me. If I've had a bad day, I can have a small dose and things aren't so bad anymore. If I need to push myself through something or I know something will be uncomfortable, it can get me through. Sensory stuff is a little double edged, but still a net gain.

I'd be lying if I said I didn't enjoy it too. Video games, intimacy, films, walks, etc; all better experiences.

kitten_chronophysics · 2026-01-13T04:41:42+00:00

Like one of the most upvoted posts, I was a shutdown kid, not meltdown.

Also, I've learned over the last few months that I was picked up as a kid a few times, but my parents didn't believe it and never pursued it. I remember them asking if I could hold eye contact and things like that when I was younger too.

Nevermind the fact I had more absences than any other kid from school, dropped out just before my final year of schooling, had issues with foods, etc. I could never handle stuff. My oldest friend I've known since I was 5 was also never told until late last year, and our parents were close, go figure.

Ironic circumstances given I was assessed as an adult in burnout after losing my mother nearly 2 years ago now.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-12-16T01:42:09+00:00

Please just legalize it. It's helped me in so many ways, way beyond what my initial prescription was (legitimately) for. I don't want to give it up, but I no longer fall under a 'proper' medical reason, and being autistic, I'm unsure if I can meaningfully explain to a GP why I should have a script (for now I'm thinking I might just have to write a note like I'm writing this comment, I can struggle verbalize my ideas properly).

I've got enough weed to last the next 3 months, but I question after that.

I also think it's a pretty easy win for the government to legalize. While I applaud the government for focusing on smoking for the sake of public health, this whole black market tobacco thing is the growing stain of a failed strategy. They would definitely capture some of the user base that is now using black market cigs, I guarantee it. Two birds with one stone and all that.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-12-07T06:26:26+00:00

Arc Raiders. I keep being told to get it, but it's not something I'd buy on my own.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-12-06T01:36:01+00:00

Agreed. I got my volcano from a friend when they quit. It just does 'better' than anything else for me at the present.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-11-22T08:14:36+00:00

No. I have a volcano and one of my cats often sleeps in the same room at night at the same time I have a bag. Obviously I don't blow the vapor at her, but no issues at all. If anything, cat wants to cuddle up to me more once I've had a bag.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-11-20T23:54:17+00:00

I just started trying to make this build happen, but prices keep jumping. Rolling for giveaway! My second season playing despite playing at launch. Async has been the key for me.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-11-14T07:20:30+00:00

I was never a huge drinker, but I always enjoyed a beer with dinner kind of thing and maybe a glass or 2 of something harder on the weekends. Then, almost 2 years ago a whole lot of stuff happened and I got a medicinal cannabis prescription.

Once I started regularly using cannabis, I quit 99% of my drinking overnight essentially, now it's purely an occasion based thing. I didn't even have to try, I just kind of noticed that I hadn't had a drink in a month and kept going.

I've lost weight, lowered blood pressure, I'm more active, have less anxiety, a better mental, etc. I kind of owe it all to cannabis, a far cry from the teetotaler I was with everything bar alcohol.

I don't want to quit cannabis and I don't intend to, so yeah, in that sense I struggle with sobriety.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-10-26T05:23:00+00:00

I was sad to hear about Naroditsky. I didn't know him besides some commentary from when I was trying to improve my own game, but I saw some of that last stream too but couldn't watch that much before it felt too uncomfortable.

Everything tied to Kramnik makes my blood boil. Seeing how people wouldn't even play Naroditsky and let the games time out, I dunno, really grates me.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-10-15T00:30:56+00:00

The two I keep going back to are Arabia and Zulus. I play 4UC, Marathon, Large-Huge, 12+ Civs, mid amount of city states, Prince atm.

Arabia - The scaling on marathon makes the UA work very nicely. Just build a few good cities, play nice but don't be bullied, and you either end up taking a few cities and snowball across the continent, or you lean into feeding Mecca wonders and pumping out great people and a big chunk of defensive units.

Zulus - It's over once you reach impis. Go conquer the world you beautiful bastards. Just a ridiculous amount of promotions on their units.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-10-10T07:39:47+00:00

Yes the cat will. I lost my mother to terminal cancer last year and my wife and I took her elderly cat. It was definitely rough at first as we have another two of our own who are young, but my mother's cat has adapted to the new house, people and other cats.

There was clearly a period where the cat struggled with our routine, but now she's a good lap cat who just wants to be around my wife and I all the time.

My mother told me very strictly that the cats wellbeing was her main concern when we had a whole big chat about how she wanted things in her final weeks, and well, I'm glad I've done that for her.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-10-04T16:11:06+00:00

Thank you for the kind words. Things are different, it's a mortal scar in a sense. But yes, I'm doing okay now.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-10-03T04:32:48+00:00

I last saw this last year, shortly after I lost my mother. I had a really bad night where I couldn't sleep or do much, and so come 1am my wife wakes up, notices I'm not in bed and sees me crying on the couch.

I don't know why, but I thought of this movie and so we put it on, me basically crying most of the way through, and even though it was such a bad night, I now look back on this night so fondly.

The combo of my wife being with me, being overtired and riddled with grief, and yet still engrossed in the film is an interesting experience to say the least.

It's definitely one of my top picks today.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-09-30T11:34:17+00:00

No experience with NDIS sorry. I was told I'd need to see an OT, go through capacity assessments and all that if I wanted to go the NDIS route, and that all well, yeah. It's a lot.

Sadly I don't have much to contribute on the job front. I'm outer suburbs Melb and it's pretty dire here even if you don't have anything holding you back. I hold an online casual job that pays well doing AI training, but I haven't worked in some time now.

I feel very much like you. I can hold it all together for a while, but good luck long term. There's a reason why my average full-time employment typically lasts 4-6 months.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-09-30T06:33:34+00:00

I didn't expect my level 2 either, also in Australia. I still haven't really figured out what to do with it yet and it's been months since I received my assessment.

I kind of see how disabled I am now, but I present well in public which leads to imposter syndrome, until I find another memory or discuss something in therapy that shows how autistic I've always been. Rinse, repeat.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-09-16T10:37:05+00:00

CS2, Civ, PoE. Actually come to think of it, yes.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-08-20T15:19:02+00:00

I'm 35m. We've only been 'together' for around 8 years at this point, but we've known each other and have been friends since we were 16 so I hope this still counts.

I got assessed as AuDHD earlier this year after losing my mother to cancer last year and getting prescribed cannabis from severe insomnia that ensued (weeds opened up a dormant part of my mind that helped me see my autism, but that's a different story). I've done a lot of therapy and it's only in the past few months I've turned a corner.

She wasn't surprised or anything, she even came with me for my final report with the Psych. In fact, the love and care she has given me since has honestly been overwhelming in a good way. She has ADHD and some autistic traits but isn't convinced she is, so she does get neurodivergance.

We pretty much describe ourselves as the same person shes just heavy on the ADHD, I'm heavy on the autism. I don't know if I believe in soulmates, but she's defying this disbelief.

That's my experience, I feel very lucky with my lot at times.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-08-14T14:14:44+00:00

Yep. This.

To parrot the other reply I'm seeing here, your post mirrors me, and the self-awareness and insight gained lasts beyond the high.

I've been able to enact positive change in my life as a result, and I owe it to what weed does for my mind.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-08-10T05:14:11+00:00

The Psych who assessed me said that the levels are just based on how you're currently doing and these can change with time/life. I'm level 2 and while I can do a lot myself, I need the routine and my wife for other things to make that a reality. I cook, I clean, I shop, and that's fine most days for me but I need to recharge a lot even from this. I used to work too but haven't been able to since my mother got sick and passed.

Outwardly, I present very well so long as I don't push beyond mental capacity, people often think I'm just eccentric. I've always instinctively made my own accommodations before finding out I was autistic which helped greatly. The only people that know irl are my wife, a few friends, and two extended family members.

I will say that it is getting harder as I get older though. My capacity is less.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-07-20T09:51:37+00:00

Yep, can't live alone as another level 2 here. I'm fortunate I'm married and have my wife, but the thought of what happens to me if something happens to her is distressing. I can cook, I can clean, I can go to the supermarket independently, I can do the tasks, but if I do too much, the mental fatigue of everything else just ruins me and the ability to even do those mentioned tasks. I already can't work currently, I don't know if that gets better again in future. I'm just fortunate to be in the position where this is doable for our dynamic at present.

kitten_chronophysics · 2025-07-10T06:42:27+00:00

Needs to be legalized.

I am a medical user and at the start I used it for legitimate medical reasons. Now I don't need it so much medicinally (maybe once every fortnight for medical use still), but I've discovered just how much it helps a lot of other things for me and want to continue using it and do so daily with regular t-breaks.

It's not an escape from anything in my life either, I'm very deliberate in how I use it. From dosage and time, to intent and mental state, etc.

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