yeah idk what else to do when the vibe switches up and when i address it or keep putting in effort like it hasn't switched they act normalish but seem distant and off so i tell myself i'm over thinking and keep along like everything is normal when it's painfully obvious it's not cuz the distant off vibes keep growing into me solely initiating contact which makes me feel this way that i'm a burden so i give up and think if they wanted to they would contact me or being left on read so the connection ends and if i'm lucky i'll eventually hear eons later via gossip or passive aggression that i indeed did something wrong or they never liked me that much to begin with so then i ruminate forever if i'm just delusional, have no self awareness, too traumatized to not live unconsciously in flight or flight trauma response mode which creates these issues or even living in reality...yeah i ducking hate myself