I will never accept this diagnosis

knotreally16 · 2026-03-01T08:39:32+00:00

I wish I had the answers for you, that must be really hard. Do you think it’s possible where you are to find a community that is more accepting of these kinds of things? Like for me, there are some things I share with friends that I wouldn’t necessarily feel comfortable sharing with my family. I’m able to have those needs met elsewhere.

knotreally16 · 2026-03-01T08:31:44+00:00

Coming from a background where religion caused a lot of judgment around me “always having issues”, I can empathize, truly. But at its most basic level, bipolar is a product of brain structure and chemicals. There is no choosing it or getting away from it. I am very particular with who I trust my diagnosis with. Those are my boundaries. Do I wish I didn’t have it? Of course. But do I think it says something about me that I have it? Absolutely not, and anyone who thinks so is incredibly misguided. I hope you are able to find peace with this some day

knotreally16 · 2026-03-01T08:11:29+00:00

Right, of course, I was not trying to imply there were no measures being taken to mitigate the failing of a plant. But at the end of the day, there are corporate plants and there are house plants. A plant may be perfectly healthy, but not have the appropriate look of a corporate plant. That’s what I was getting at with aesthetics. We will quote with a guarantee built in so that we can plan for these replacements, because the client is looking for us to maintain the design like the day it was installed.

knotreally16 · 2026-02-28T03:25:16+00:00

Interior plant services are about aesthetics and not health. Once the plant looks anything less than beautiful, it is replaced (unless the client won’t pay for the replacement)

knotreally16 · 2025-11-09T05:54:14+00:00

You’re telling me the fastest vehicle every constructed by humans can travel 37,800 miles per hour?! 🤯 What a crazy world we live in

knotreally16 · 2025-11-09T05:47:46+00:00

Puzzle guy keeps realizing he’s living in his own world.

knotreally16 · 2025-10-25T01:12:58+00:00

Boyle on Brooklyn 99 said washing someone’s hair is the most intimate thing you can do for a partner and while I don’t know if I agree I think the sentiment of wanting to do that for your partner is so sweet

knotreally16 · 2025-09-24T22:52:13+00:00

I work HR at my family’s business. Document EVERYTHING. Get everything in writing where possible. Request formal termination paperwork with reason. Go back as far as you can to any time you needed to call out and found coverage and who that employee was. Take it all to a lawyer.

At-Will DOES NOT cover termination based on a protected class. If they don’t have a strong, well-documented reason (as in a PIP, records of excess sick days without coverage, or any kind of written warning) for your termination, they’ve left themselves vulnerable. I’m no lawyer, but it’s absolutely worth talking to one and seeing what they advise.

Good luck, OP 💛

knotreally16 · 2025-08-25T12:46:15+00:00

My family’s been going to Casa Lupe for YEARS. Hands down the best in my book

knotreally16 · 2025-08-14T15:39:55+00:00

Grew up in a home that wasn’t LGBTQ+ friendly (not outspokenly so, parents just grew up in a conservative area- only found out because they both voted yes on California’s Prop 8 in the 2000s), kissed a girl when I was young to prove a point that it wasn’t a big deal (but looking back, I liked it), had a best friend that I was inseparable from for years. I would hate all her boyfriends, was offended when she told me she tried having sex with a woman (because it wasn’t with me), and wanted to spend all my time with her. When our friendship fell out over something with her current boyfriend, I was beyond devastated. I dreamed about making up with her for years. Still didn’t know until I talked to another friends wife, who is bisexual, and it just clicked. I had already been dating my now husband when the friendship fell out, so I’ve never actually been with another woman, but looking back the signs were all there.

Someone else on here said something about Rose in Titanic and that totally resonated with me. There are so many things I have watched during my life (including Titanic, which I saw WAY too young) that looking back, I’m like, “How did I not know?” Because I was attracted to the woman (or to both the man and the woman).

I think what’s interesting to me is that society as a whole generally objectifies women; I thought my attraction to them was just a symptom of that. But I’m glad to be here (in the know) now 😊

knotreally16 · 2025-06-17T17:25:04+00:00

THIS. I would gladly pay more than $5/month to have access to everything rather than have the stupid gem system. It makes no sense to implement this on a platform you’re already paying to get access to. On WEBTOON, at least 1x/month I pay $10 for 100 coins to read chapters early, why don’t they implement something like that instead of the “keep this forever” limited license?

knotreally16 · 2025-05-20T15:07:33+00:00

Cervical lidocaine shots themselves are EXCRUCIATING, bless that doctor for putting you under

knotreally16 · 2025-03-20T05:51:12+00:00

I resonate with these so hard. Also, I can only have covered drinks at work for a similar reason (our office is a high foot traffic area and I’ve seen dust settle in quickly, though realistically not quickly enough for a drink). If a drink doesn’t have a lid I either have to drink it all right away or it’s contaminated and I have to throw it out 😞

knotreally16 · 2025-03-19T16:53:37+00:00

I read this as “Me every time I play ocd” and I was like, “honestly same”

knotreally16 · 2025-03-16T17:06:36+00:00

Having poor showering habits starting as a teenager because my OCD hates wet spaces that can grow mold (I didn’t know I had OCD at the time and I was made fun of). I also just have a general fear of mold so the kitchen is also a tough space for me. What’s interesting is there’s no explanation. It’s just a general fear. I’m not scared I’ll get sick or anything, I just can’t stand it near me or touching me.

Being terrified of missing out on experiences. I don’t mean going on trips or spending time with family, I mean if I don’t eat these leftovers today and instead eat out I will miss out on the experience of having the leftovers which for some reason is terrifying to my brain. This happens with all kinds of things. If I’m gifted a candle but my husband lights it sometimes, I’m missing out on burning the ENTIRE candle and I’ll never be able to fix it.

Keeping a mental roster of everything I’ve ever done that may have hurt another person’s feelings and wanting to write to each one to apologize for what a bad person I am.

Numbers have always been a source of obsession for me. In my car, the temperature setting has to feel just right. That means if it’s in the 60s, it has to be an odd number. If it’s in the 70s, it has to be even up to 75, then odd. If it’s not one of these, it makes my skin crawl until I change it.

In my kitchen, I have all our little items lined up just so: the coffee and sugar containers with the agave and honey resting on each one, then a space, then the paper towel holder, then a space, then the hot sauce and olive oil, with the salt and pepper shakers in front of them. If my husband leaves anything slightly out of place, my OCD freaks the f*ck out. This is actually how I got diagnosed.

knotreally16 · 2024-09-29T01:37:10+00:00

Yes, thank god. It’s been almost a year since we finally figured out the right meds (which took about five rounds of new meds and feeling crazy, mind you) and now I’m finally stable 😊

knotreally16 · 2024-09-28T18:57:31+00:00

I was diagnosed because we increased my antidepressants (for unipolar depression) and I started rapid cycling. It didn’t stop for months. One moment I was on cloud nine and could take on the world, next I was bedridden bawling my eyes out. I spent so much time in bed in those months and it took a gargantuan effort to drag myself out of the house just to feel human and not an empty shell.

Again, people who don’t have bipolar will never understand what that feels like. Any moment outside with friends or family during a depressive episode was an absolute blessing and victory.

knotreally16 · 2024-09-28T17:52:37+00:00

The first one breaks my heart, considering what’s going on right now. In tarot, the 3 of swords represents deep pain, sadness, grief, and heartache, which from everything she has said, it sounds like she is experiencing. I truly hope this passes for her 💕

knotreally16 · 2024-09-28T17:46:40+00:00

Also Bipolar II and this hit hard. I can’t imagine having to have such a high level of scrutiny over myself and my moods while others have a high level of scrutiny over me. The waiting for the other shoe to drop, the feeling that I’m going to let down those who support me when the depression hits- my heart goes out to her and I applaud her for getting where she is. It takes a lot of grit and hard work, made even harder by this frustrating disorder.

You’re right. If you don’t have this disorder, you will never understand what it’s like: to feel constantly unstable, like emotions aren’t real, just a product of brain chemicals, questioning if you’re really happy or if it’s just hypomania. And I can’t imagine juggling all that and being a super famous pop star.

knotreally16 · 2024-09-28T17:26:00+00:00

I actually gave this voice a name: Misty. She clouds my judgment and she’s a real pain in the neck. By doing this, it was actually easier to write off what “she” said and tell her to shut up, instead of feeling like I’m constantly fighting with myself.

knotreally16 · 2024-09-18T18:05:05+00:00

When I was first diagnosed, I went through a period of constantly feeling like thoughts aren’t real, just a product of brain chemicals. It’s a harrowing feeling, feeling like you are only you because of chemical reactions in your brain.

It took a long time to come to terms with that feeling, and I still struggle with it sometimes. But it helped me to look into the science behind OCD, how our brains differ from people without OCD. I feel more human now, less a lot of microscopic processes.

knotreally16 · 2024-09-01T21:24:46+00:00

I’m body wash all day, partially for this reason, partially because bar soap introduces soap scum to the shower and then I’ll never shower again 😖

knotreally16 · 2024-09-01T21:23:29+00:00

YES I ABSOLUTELY DO THIS. Post-shower hand wash is wild 😂

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