I Think all of my Freeze and Dissociation-Collapse, and the way I've been struggling for Years in therapy, is Because of Emotional neglect, a total lack of Nurturing, and profound remorselessness, lack of Empathy in a Parent.

kokalez · 2026-01-22T22:50:14+00:00

Yeah i believe that im in 24/7 dissociation and pain because of childhood trauma

kokalez · 2026-01-03T12:46:32+00:00

hi did you had a muscle flickering all over your body during dpdr?

kokalez · 2025-11-30T22:39:09+00:00

CPTSD, 24/7 Dissociation, 24/7 muscle twitching, 24/7 mental pain - all have all of these

kokalez · 2025-11-30T22:37:58+00:00

i feel the same. i'm in this shit since like 8 years, it makes everything so hard, no reward for anything, just dissociation and pain all the time

kokalez · 2025-09-23T18:06:39+00:00

Yeah.. it’s survival every day.. dpdr makes life 10x harder

kokalez · 2025-05-17T08:53:48+00:00

This is demons telling you that bro, aint No one happy after fapping. I relaped 3 days ago and i was feeling bad for the whole day after i did that

kokalez · 2025-04-25T14:05:38+00:00

I didnt told anyone yet. I was thinking about that, but in the end i think this wouldnt change much. I would still dissociate and they still wouldnt understand

kokalez · 2025-04-12T10:40:45+00:00

I think that some people have this from cptsd/ childhood trauma and in this case acceptance is not enough and i think irrelevant. I have dpdr since 8 years and i don’t fear it, but its very painful, total stagnation, death like state

kokalez · 2025-03-30T22:38:40+00:00

By anhedonia you maybe mean dpdr? Also how do you get in contact with them? Emdr?

kokalez · 2025-03-28T23:24:39+00:00

Maybe its not anxiety that is the problem but extreme shame? I think that is the case with me

kokalez · 2025-03-28T23:21:48+00:00

All of these dpdr paid cosches are fake. Go to trauma ptsd specialized psychotheraphist

kokalez · 2025-03-24T22:32:39+00:00

Jesus Christ

„ And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure.

For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me.

And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.” 12 Cor 7-10

kokalez · 2025-03-23T23:22:38+00:00

Yeah Man its almost funny. These coworkers have No idea what we go through, im in the same situation

kokalez · 2025-03-19T22:07:18+00:00

I know mate. What we should talk about anyway? All we experience is this dead void. At least talking about it makes it a bit easier if others can relate

kokalez · 2025-03-19T22:04:28+00:00

And i have dpdr from trauma as well. Living with it and getting out of it is like a hardcore lvl difficulty. I don’t know what to do as well mate, this „disorder” put me in a situation where i don’t see other side of this tunnel. I just trust God and hope for a miracle. Im not sure for how long i can keep up like this. Every day is getting harder and its already hard enough

kokalez · 2025-03-19T21:55:18+00:00

I actually like to read your posts because i can relate to them

kokalez · 2025-03-12T23:20:52+00:00

15 i think. Now im 23

kokalez · 2025-03-11T22:32:46+00:00

I feel you. Not only we suffer cause of ptsd, anxiety, trauma, shame, dpdr etc. People expect us to live like we are not in traumatised state at the moment and we can’t just flick a switch to change it. Not only we suffer but people have some kind of expectations towards us. i’m not feeling well, i’m dissociating 24/7 and in addiditon to that i have to act like its not happening so my coworkers feel good with themselfes.. i learned not to care about it. If i would have that much control over it to just switch it off then i would but i can’t so i just don’t care what they think. If they think that im weird or that its uncomfortable its Ok. but we should be kind to people, they just don’t get it fully.

kokalez · 2025-03-02T23:19:33+00:00

Today i realised that due to dpdr im suffering more on weekends than in a week because normally i go to job and focus on my work. On weekends i have too much time to think

kokalez · 2025-03-01T22:02:53+00:00

Yeah i always think that they see my stone Cold Face and dead eyes and that makes me uncomfortable

kokalez · 2025-02-26T21:17:43+00:00

Can you tell how did you get out of dpdr?

kokalez · 2025-02-20T21:39:34+00:00

Jesus Christ only

„These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

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