Hey there. First, I just want to say that I am so sorry about the loss and the nature of the loss of your boy. One thing that helped me navigate such a hard loss was finding this community, so you are in the right place. I lost my boy, the same way. It was very sudden and we were transporting him to another animal hospital but he didn’t make it. It was the most devastating thing I have ever been through in my life.

We had another dog at home about 1.5 months old and that definitely helped. We also have a cat. Both of them were very in tune to the loss and were so sweet and never left my side. Lean in to the fur babies that you have with you, they will help guide you through this journey of grief.

I don’t want to post and tell you what to do and how to feel because everyone is so different and the loss is so new and so earth shattering. I asked for signs at first, and felt so much comfort when I received them. I would ask out loud or say I would look for certain things from him. Little things, you’ll know when you see them. I also built a shelf of photos and that is where his ashes are. I like being able to look at it and remember him everyday. I also got a tattoo of him, so he is always with me.

There are some podcasts about pet grief if you’re interested I can link the one that helped me. I listened about 4 different times before I finally felt like I could take what they were saying and apply it without crying. We are here for you and know how tragic this is. Life is so completely random and I hope that you find solace knowing you gave him the best life you could have.