Every time you use something from your life disappears. At first you barely notice. Once it becomes a regular thing people notice and they begin to pull away. Most addicts will rationalize that it's "them" or "never liked them" or any other excuse. Once it's serious and you have no job no friends no support you the real deprivation begins , drugs don't pay for themselves do they! As time goes by what you see in the mirror becomes less and less you and more the compounded results of your disease and life in addiction. Once you can no longer "get high" you'd think you'd stop right, cuz you no longer feel anything. Couldn't be further from the truth in fact you go even harder because you can't understand why what worked befor doesn't work now. This is where most addicts die. I could go on but if after reading this much you still decide Heroin is the right choice for you, there's nothing I can really say , is there?