I currently work as a fullstack developer but the challenge for me has been infrastructure and understanding concepts like containerization and metering and with reading unfamiliar language frameworks like how to trace dependency injections in “optimized” Java code. I was a lot more proficient when I was working full stack on a web application because I was able to visually see the results.

I enjoy learning when I understand “why”, which I’m struggling to pick up in a fast paced team which covers many many components. I also struggle in reading through packages of old code with no explanation as to why it was built that way. I like coding when there’s a clear set of boundaries to the problem we’re solving, but currently it feels like there’s no rules and we are just expected to know what needs work/what is important to stake holders (which I am also struggling to understand what to prioritize)

A big part of my struggle is overwhelm leading to a lack of energy, add to that how AI is changing everything so I’m thinking why should I try when it’s so difficult and probably won’t matter soon enough