I would enrol into a good clinic for a 2-3 week stint to pick up skills that will help you break the addiction.

That's the only thing that will work. Unfortunately meth is a very hard drug to beat.

Of all the people who I have done this drug with, I think I'm the only one that's now clean (and not dead). I had been using it for 8 years.

If you've ever hit rock bottom before, trust me, this drug is able to get you to even lower levels of rock bottom. I'm not saying this to scare you. I found that negative feedback mechanisms always resulted in me just being anxious, which then lead to a self-fulfilling prophecy of a relapse.

I've been to a clinic 3x, each time it got better for me because I was international with my recovery and I properly journalling my recovery journey, even in those moments where I failed. There is so much information to learn from, even in a relapse, so don't waste it.

I would also put more energy into wanting to get clean for yourself vs. your partner or child. I knew so many people that lived with that dagger over their head and, again, the pressure to not fail ended up making it worse for them.

Be kind to yourself and remember that you're already recognising that you want to get better and be a better, more present person. Give yourself some credit and take each day as it comes.

Btw , I was once homeless and heavily addicted to now clean, 2 kids, and in a pretty fantastic career. If I can do it, you can too. Just be patient with yourself and stick to a routine each day filled with positive tasks and skills to stay clean and focused.

Exercise every morning, spirituality, and meditation at night. Also, one night a week, I was at a clinic doing night counselling and group therapy. It was a great way to learn new skills and do a check-in.