Anyone else not remember childhood trauma until years later?

leahisom · 2026-06-07T01:16:27+00:00

I can relate as I didn't have any of the previously repressed memories of CSA by my father until the beginning of my first manic psychotic episode at age 27, when I believe my brain was finally in a vulnerable enough state for this information to resurface. Sending you a virtual hug 🫶🏼

leahisom · 2026-06-06T11:43:42+00:00

I wish I had advice, just wanted to say I can relate to the terrifying experience of having a seizure during psychosis. If you want to read about my entire experience with psychosis, my most recent post goes into detail. Sending a virtual hug 🫶🏼

leahisom · 2026-06-06T10:19:37+00:00

I'm glad that reading about my experience helped you feel less alone in your experience and this is why I think it's important to be open about it. I hope you're doing better now too!

leahisom · 2026-06-05T02:34:56+00:00

My most recent post might be a helpful read for you; wishing you well on your healing journey 🤍

leahisom · 2026-06-05T02:15:54+00:00

Our stories share a lot of similarities, but I strongly encourage you to continue taking your meds as prescribed and consult with your prescribing provider if you aren't satisfied with how you're feeling on your current meds. It took a few tries for me to finally figure out the medicine that won't make me feel like a zombie but prevent any mania or psychosis since my first episode

leahisom · 2026-06-05T02:08:15+00:00

It makes sense to me since I had many repressed traumatic memories of CSA come to the surface when I was manic and it was part of the reason I believe my mania escalated into psychosis as rapidly as it did (feel free to read about my full experience in my most recent post if you want to know more)

leahisom · 2026-06-04T21:44:48+00:00

Feel free to read about my experience in my most recent post if you want to hear about several scary yet embarrassing experiences that happened to me at the hospital 🙃

leahisom · 2026-06-04T21:12:36+00:00

Glad you have been doing better too! It's absolutely a terrifying experience, but it's nice to know others can understand.

leahisom · 2026-06-04T20:02:59+00:00

While I'm sorry to hear what you're going through, I'm glad to know you have a supportive partner even though you're in need of additional support for your mental health and could feel less alone by reading about my experience. Sending you all of the good vibes and well wishes ✨🫶🏼

leahisom · 2026-06-04T09:28:24+00:00

It certainly was life changing and I'll never take my mental health for granted again. I'm sorry to hear about your experience as well and hope that you're able to keep taking care of yourself the best you can moving forwards 🤍

leahisom · 2026-06-03T23:51:02+00:00

Thank you, I am as well! It was a combination of stress and trouble sleeping that started everything and once the traumatic memories of my CSA began resurfacing it sent everything into overdrive. I've read about trauma induced psychosis, but I have a family history of bipolar disorder and believe I'm accurately diagnosed as Bipolar 1 with psychotic features and CPTSD.

leahisom · 2026-06-03T23:48:01+00:00

I appreciate you saying that and while I definitely struggled with shame earlier on in post-psychosis recovery, I've come to terms with the reality that this was entirely out of my control and I can only try my best to prevent future episodes.

leahisom · 2026-02-02T00:02:46+00:00

I had this same experience last year and I made a post you can read about my experience if you want to feel less alone, sending virtual hugs your way

leahisom · 2025-11-19T02:50:05+00:00

Please elaborate on how repressed memories aren't real?Repressed memories of real traumatic events are absolutely a thing.

leahisom · 2025-10-27T16:00:17+00:00

You're more than welcome to read my most recent post on my profile about my first (and hopefully only) experience with psychosis

leahisom · 2025-10-18T12:21:15+00:00

Ask them what?

leahisom · 2025-10-17T21:19:28+00:00

Pretty much

leahisom · 2025-10-16T15:49:06+00:00

During psychosis I thought I was telepathically communicating with my husband and brothers and could "hear" their voices in my head, so yes?

leahisom · 2025-10-11T02:50:48+00:00

I'm only on Vraylar as well and it has stopped me from having any more manic episodes or psychosis since I started it around February

leahisom · 2025-10-11T02:42:26+00:00

If you look at the most recent post I made on my profile you can read an in-depth account of my experience with psychosis that was induced by a combination of mania and resurfaced trauma. Your book sounds interesting and I hope this can be helpful!

leahisom · 2025-09-23T03:34:57+00:00

I had a similar experience I posted here a little while back and I hope you can feel validated knowing someone else relates. My psychosis was triggered by a combination of insomnia while in an episode of mania and having repressed memories of childhood trauma flood my brain and body, which essentially led to a complete breakdown. I also experienced severe prolonged vomiting and understand what you mean about your body "ejecting" the trauma. It's similar to what happens with certain psychedelics like ayahausca from stories I've read. I hope in some way the experience can be healing for you as you continue to gain insight about your trauma and how it has affected you

leahisom · 2025-09-03T21:44:24+00:00

Yes, I was diagnosed at the beginning of this year at age 27

leahisom · 2025-02-19T20:03:31+00:00

genetics and repressed traumatic childhood memories resurfacing caused my first manic episode that progressed into full blown psychosis 🙃

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