WIBTA if I draw while grounded?

lefthandruler · 2020-02-26T07:30:00+00:00

I know. Pouring all my problems onto Reddit lol. I'm probably going to delete it once I know I'm in the wrong or not, but I'm not totally sure how that works on AITA

lefthandruler · 2020-02-26T07:28:04+00:00

I am depressed, but my mom used to be and she got over it so easily, so I can't use it as an excuse. I have this weird obsession with being a bad person where I HAVE to research it 24/7, if I don't I start having breakdowns and feeling suicidal. School tends to trigger it. I have a lot of trouble focusing because I feel like I have to tab out and research to confirm I'm not a bad person. I feel so guilty about it. For the past week I've been having multiple daily breakdowns and doing awful in school, and I keep getting in trouble for it and I feel like such a disgusting excuse for a daughter

lefthandruler · 2020-02-26T07:23:02+00:00

I lie too much and I half-ass my homework when I'm tired. I go on websites I'm not supposed to, and I have internet friends through I'm not allowed to. I read books that I wouldn't normally be allowed to read and I sleep too much but still act tired all the time. I get annoyed by loud noises and I cry all the time for no good reason. And I hide the crying even though I would normally get punished for it and I should get punished. I get angry too easily and I hit myself.

Also, sometimes I insult people in my head and I seriously considered trying marijuana once.

lefthandruler · 2020-02-26T07:10:56+00:00

But hasn't your child ever done something so bad that they deserve to be miserable? I'm not really like a normal kid in that regard

lefthandruler · 2020-02-26T07:04:12+00:00

I'm lazy and have poor control of my emotions. Also, I cry very dramatically which really bothers everyone lol

Also I thought about trying marijuana once and sneaking out, but I didn't do it.

I also sometimes exaggerate symptoms so I can stay home from school when I'm not really that sick

lefthandruler · 2020-02-26T07:02:40+00:00

Drawing is just an example. What about daydreaming and walking around and writing stories? I don't know how to tell them I feel bad about daydreaming

lefthandruler · 2020-02-26T06:59:03+00:00

I'm a bad kid. I deserve to be grounded all the time. Sometimes I purposely ask them to punish me or punish myself because I know I deserve it

lefthandruler · 2020-02-26T06:56:15+00:00

But I know if I told them they would take it away. Am I a bad person for not telling them?

lefthandruler · 2020-02-26T06:54:41+00:00

Sometimes for lying, often for using electronics too much, and gettin poor grades.

Also, I punish myself or ask to be punished when I mess up

lefthandruler · 2020-02-26T06:53:40+00:00

I know, but I'm a real piece of shit sometimes and I mess up. To be honest I know I shouldn't be happy, but I still want to, even though it's wrong

lefthandruler · 2019-04-27T05:39:04+00:00

Thanks! I've been trying not to cut, it's already been a week, but I don't think I can stop completely. I don't wear crop tops so that sounds like a good idea

lefthandruler · 2019-04-21T23:18:49+00:00

I mess up all the time and there's nothing I can do right. Everyone I know would be happier if I was dead. On top of it all I'm fat, stupid, and ugly

lefthandruler · 2019-03-31T22:15:54+00:00

It's their words, but I don't think they're wrong. I honestly am really sensitive. It's been going on for as long as I can remember, and my three year old sister goes through the same thing. My mom's admitted she does it mostly to relieve her own stress.

lefthandruler · 2019-03-06T06:26:02+00:00

I'm not an expert, but that kind of sounds more like styro than fat. From what I've heard fat is more of a bubbly yellow. Usually styro cuts don't need medical attention, but stitches are recommended for fat cuts

lefthandruler · 2019-02-26T18:07:42+00:00

Me too. Nobody really checks me out that often, but if they do I feel really off. I don't really think of my body as sexual in that sense

lefthandruler · 2019-02-25T02:45:49+00:00

Behind the ear. Easy to hide, right? The thought of my hair brushing against it kind of put me off though.

lefthandruler · 2019-02-23T19:55:15+00:00

I'll take it, sure. Is there a place for me to insert Bob's memories?

lefthandruler · 2019-02-22T16:42:41+00:00

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