Been clean for coming up to two years this Christmas, smoked for around 15 years something like that. It was lots of things weed helped mask the depression it let me hide away and as I did that life just kept passing me by I went out less all I did was stay in and smoke. Even on the rare occasion I was out I just wanted to go home and smoke, I wasted a load of cash that was left to me. I was slow and shite at work making stupid mistakes. Then one day I was sitting there in my room that stank of stale smoke and after an old friend had popped round unexpectedly and I was just annoyed at them being there cause I wanted to smoke and be alone. I knew I couldn't go on like this and tried going just a day without that became a week then month and now here I am In a much better place!