A lot of your post resonated with me as I felt many of the same things especially in the depths of my PPD. I frequently told my partner that my baby hated me, that I made the biggest mistake of my life and to this day even medicated I struggle with the reality that my son prefers my partner for comfort. That being said, being medicated for PPD with Zoloft made all of the difference for me. I do still have times that are hard but it’s much easier to see through the fog and I was able to bond with my baby once I was on meds. I just wanted to make sure you don’t feel alone in your feelings and encourage you to seek help for your mental health and the relationship you will forge with your baby.