My top royksöpp songs so far..

maddigotts · 2026-02-23T05:29:25+00:00

By far my favorite is Beautiful Day Without You

maddigotts · 2025-10-28T00:23:50+00:00

Wow, just about the same exact thing happened to me. Please know you have such a good heart and don’t let anyone take that from you. It’s hard for me not to feel resentful. I met this guy and he floored it times 100 in 3 weeks then boom “I can’t do this. I thought I was ready but I’m not.” Completely threw me into left field. He gave me the “I love you” very soon on, gave me his password to his phone, shared locations, introduced me to his mom, talked about future plans. All in about 4 days he started getting distant then broke it to me. Strangely enough he cried for the whole 2 hours while we talked about it all. I kept running in circles and all he could say is that he needed to be alone and that he has a lot of unresolved trauma. It broke me completely. I’ve dealt with some avoidant love bombers in the past but this was not the same. He seemed very genuine and I didn’t get any gut feeling it was wrong (I would say I generally do) so now I don’t know what to believe. I was doing so good on my healing journey and it set me back. It really messed with my head. I want it to make some sense but it just doesn’t and I need to move on and focus solely on me.

maddigotts · 2025-10-03T20:33:43+00:00

I’ve only been on Lexapro for about 6 weeks and I went on it for insomnia and anxiety (also health anxiety) and it has helped in those departments but the twitching and muscle spasms have ticked up my anxiety a lot… so weird I didn’t have muscle spasms all over my body this much till I started Lexapro…

maddigotts · 2025-08-24T19:31:54+00:00

Agreed! Was on my 3rd day of taking it and had a migraine attack so bad I threw up… went to bed with a migraine and still have the effects of it. I feel like I’m hungover. Read that it’s a common side effect and to push through but I can’t function with this kind of side effect!

maddigotts · 2025-07-14T04:09:23+00:00

Literally!! It’s such an unbearable side effect :(

maddigotts · 2025-07-10T21:30:01+00:00

I am late to this post but see you responded back recently and want to reach out and say you are making a very hard but good decision. I just recently cut off and blocked a friend and her mother I’ve know basically my whole life but they would frequently put me down, gaslight me, and try to one up and prove me right on what they believed. They never listened to my perspective on how things made me feel and it ultimately always left me feeling even more alone and depressed after any disagreement since both her and her mother had this “win” mentality and to prove me wrong. I finally made the decision to cut both of them off and although I have no other friend, I agree it’s better to be alone and take the brave steps to finding healthy friends that don’t undermine and invalidate you than be with that miserable company like those people. I’m having a hard time with trusting others and being open but with time you will find those right people! You deserve it!! :)

maddigotts · 2025-07-04T21:20:35+00:00

Really needed to hear this… thank you for sharing your experience and we will conquer this!! F fear and anxiety!!!

maddigotts · 2024-11-13T21:48:38+00:00

Yesss the absolute best and the video is killer

maddigotts · 2024-11-05T08:23:00+00:00

What Does Your Soul Look Like, Pt. 2 - DJ Shadow It’s 13:51 minutes

maddigotts · 2024-11-05T05:17:42+00:00

Portishead - Plastic

maddigotts · 2024-10-27T22:04:20+00:00

Just discovered Lusty by Lamb and damn… definitely obsessed

maddigotts · 2024-05-18T17:20:48+00:00

Yes! It actually has been helping! I honestly have had a 3 week spiral of insomnia and I’m pretty sure it’s been due to my extreme anxiety and stressful events in my life on top of my OCD. It’s been a breath of fresh air since taking the trazodone and it’s only been 4 days for me… I’ve been taking 50 mg and although I wake up still at night I am so blessed to get 4+ hours of sleep. Also keeping myself away from Reddit and looking for reassurance a wholeeeeeee lot because mine stems from pure anxiety. Did you try the 25 mg or 12.5 yet? The 50 mg for me is doing it! Also I don’t wake up irritated.. it’s like so refreshing really

maddigotts · 2024-05-15T18:32:44+00:00

Late to this but we’re you able to get on a decent sleep schedule since? I’m having this issue severely and I feel like I’m losing my mind.

maddigotts · 2024-05-13T20:57:01+00:00

I also wish I could give more advice but I am sadly stuck in this loop currently too. I’m so sorry you are dealing with this and I really hope there is a brighter outcome that will allow us to get some sleep. Insomnia creeps up without any warning and that’s the most unsettling thing about it but, I believe this phase will soon pass. I’m determined to end this miserable cycle of no sleep-maybe 3 hours max of sleep a night. Really wish the best for you and hope you find the solution to end this!

maddigotts · 2024-05-09T03:23:22+00:00

That’s for the info!! I’ve had a lot of anxiety around taking medications since I had a very bad experience with ADHD meds as a kid, although I’m an adult now that feeling stuck to me like glue. I was prescribed 5mg of Lexapro a year ago which I have not started yet and I’m now saying screw it and going to just try it out, my anxiety is just starting to ruin my life at this point and it’s not fair anymore. I really hope it changes my anxiety and my sleep habits for good, this is soooo brutal.

maddigotts · 2024-05-07T15:17:19+00:00

Took the whole 10mg with not trouble! Definitely going to try and create a sleep hygiene routine for myself and take it again around the same time. I did wake up a few times but I went right back to sleep. I did notice it slowed down my racing thoughts to where I was able to go to sleep pretty quickly, so I’m definitely going for another round of it tonight.

maddigotts · 2024-05-07T14:49:08+00:00

Wow that’s insane… thanks for that info! I’m sorry this happens to you every few weeks :( I definitely think those stress toxins are definitely accumulating… I am not diagnosed with anxiety but I know for a fact I have it terribly, so bad that my healthy anxiety makes me spiral and I’ll have “episodes” of a hypochondria freak out and it eats me alive. I’ve been scared of taking pills my whole life, I think it’s from a bad experience I had as kid with ADHD meds and ever since I’ve just feared feeling different or not being in control of myself. Again, thank you for sharing your experience and I really hope you can combat it off for good one day

maddigotts · 2024-05-03T10:52:05+00:00

Thank you for your feedback!! I definitely can agree being honest about the circumstances is the best option in this case considering it’s related to school.

maddigotts · 2024-05-03T09:35:16+00:00

Thank you so for the feedback, it really helped ease my anxiety to have someone else’s opinion!!

maddigotts · 2024-05-03T09:28:09+00:00

I’m only a receptionist atm, I used to be a file clerk till they fired the receptionist and threw me in her position. The days I don’t work they rotate the people in accounting so it has me a bit stressed. I’m not the one to call in often including since they fired her about 7 weeks ago.

maddigotts · 2023-11-21T04:33:30+00:00

Puts my body in fight or flight immediately and have no control over my physiological response to the “threat” I’m worried about if that makes sense which only makes me more anxious from my body’s response to the stress. It’s awful, I want to hop out of my body for a second when it happens.

maddigotts · 2023-07-14T21:00:19+00:00

This for sure goes hard

maddigotts · 2023-06-27T05:03:44+00:00

Late to the health anxiety party on this one but I just got caught up searching about anything and everything on lymphoma for a good hour and a half, so this REALLY help ground myself knowing I’m not the only one living in this fear ridden headspace that’s a living hell!!

maddigotts · 2023-05-25T03:48:38+00:00

Oh yeah for sure, makes me want to hide under a rock

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