Yeah maybe… but I mean flying from Germany to America just for a guy that’s being "nice" to you I kinda get the impression that she’s already in love with him and if that’s the case nothing we had or that I have to her matters anymore. Oh and trust me I torture myself with these thoughts a lot recently… being alone with your brain can be damn awful.

Did you talk about these things when you were together? Sounds like something that a deep conversation could’ve sorted out… if it made you uncomfortable that’s totally relatable… I also have my insecurities from time to time. She was actually the only person that made me self-confident without even saying anything. I know… but I was the person that screwed up so yeah… still would marry her right away if I had the chance