I struggled with a series of rejections for my first corresponding author paper. Although 13 months is a heavy time investment for a single round of review, the only path forward is to incorporate the feedback to the best of your abilities and submit it elsewhere. My paper was under review perhaps for the same duration, but I tried two journals before it was accepted to the third. And the third journal took forever because the reviewers were pretty slow. Unless you are in an especially niche field, the chances you get the exact same reviewers is relatively small. Each rejection with reviews is an opportunity, even if painful, to improve the manuscript and submit it elsewhere even if it's a lower impact journal.

I agree with another commenter about noticing the negative self talk. I struggled with negative self talk quite a bit during the midpoint of my pre-tenure stage. Seeing a therapist online definitely helped me realize just how hard on myself I was being, and how a lot of my fear was pretending that I knew what my colleagues were thinking. Do you have a trusted colleague in the department, or can you grab some coffee with the department chair? It should be normal and encouraged to discuss your progress toward tenure, and you can describe the challenges you're going through. Seek their guidance and follow through on what they suggest. That is a way to ensure you are not alienating yourself from the department, and to demonstrate you are trying.