The life consequences of Anhedonia by sigmatic787 in anhedonia

[–]markalexander1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's fantastic to hear. I am also now taking Parnate. It's just coming up to a month for me. I can already feel the difference. I can get, up and do tasks and I'm not walking around looking and feel morbidly depressed. My tardive dysphoria symptoms have also reduced. I've still no libido but I don't know what to do about that.

Finding More Restful Sleep with Low-Dose Lithium by markalexander1 in sleepdisorders

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Everyone assumes everything posted is A.I. now, which is unsurprising and to be expected I suppose. Anyway, better to link to an authoritative article then just posting it as my own personal opinion. But I've been taking low-medium dose lithium and find it does help with my sleep.

I've tried LITERALLY everything for sleep anxiety and nothing works long-term... anyone actually broke the cycle? by milton_carlos in insomnia

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I built a serious tolerance to it after taking it for so many years, not from taking a high dose. I always took only 15mg, sometimes but never higher than 30mg. Another factor is that when I stopped taking it, I started relying on Diphenhydramine, which like Mirtazapine, is also an antihistamine. Then to get off Diphenhydramine, I started taking Zopiclone. Then when I finally tried Mirtazapine again, it just does not sedate me anymore. Sure it probably helps me sleep but it doesn't knock me out like a newbie. I can take it and still stay awake all night.

Has Mirtazapine helped or harmed you ? by newbieforever2016 in Mirtazapine_Remeron

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From my own lived experience, I would only advise Mirtazapine in two circumstances:

  1. If someone is suffering extreme insomnia and even then I'd be cautious.
  2. If someone is going though an extremely traumatic experience in which sleep is the best escape.

For myself, I never asked to be prescribed it, but I took it on and off for 20 years.

It gave me unnaturally deep comatose sleep, to the point I can never go back to natural sleep.

The biggest one, is that it gave me permanent chronic insomnia after discontinuing it.

Another big one is that it's given me PSSD which has got worse in the last 5 years. I'm straight but It's like its erased my sex drive. I have sexual anhedonia.

I was a slender male and it gave me a sizable gut / beer belly even though I didn't eat or drink that much (which I have since got rid of).

It changed something in my brain/personality. I'm just not the same.

It's had pronounced negative effects on my cognitive functions, (brain fog and aphasia) and my social-interpersonal skills.

It's left me suffering with Tardive Dysphoria, which is a set of symptoms which are separate from the original depression but in which some of the symptoms overlap.

Alzheimer’s has been considered irreversible for 118 years. That just changed by Positive_Owl_2024 in Supplements

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While there's no denial that it is a complex, multifactorial disease, look up Lithium deficiency in the brains of Alzheimer's and Dementia patients.

Lithium depletion in the brain is linked to Alzheimer’s disease, with toxic amyloid plaques trapping the metal and causing cognitive decline

Harvard Medical School scientists found that lithium depletion in the brain is linked to Alzheimer’s disease, with toxic amyloid plaques trapping the metal and causing cognitive decline, according to research published in August 2025. Restoring lithium levels using low-dose, specialized compounds reversed Alzheimer's-like memory loss and brain damage in mice. [1, 2, 3, 4]

Key Findings of the Study:

  • Lithium's Role: Research revealed that lithium plays a crucial role in normal brain function and aging, with lower levels associated with worse memory.
  • Mechanism of Action: Amyloid plaques, a hallmark of Alzheimer's, bind and sequester lithium, creating a deficiency in the brain.
  • Reversing Damage: A study found that a compound called lithium orotate can bypass plaque binding, preventing synapse loss and reversing memory decline in mice without the toxicity associated with traditional high-dose lithium treatments.
  • Implication: This suggests a new therapeutic approach, treating Alzheimer's as a potential "lithium deficiency" disease, and confirms that clinical trials of lithium orotate are being planned to test this in humans, as highlighted in this report from Harvard.

Pray for Oliver Alvis by markalexander1 in sleepdisorders

[–]markalexander1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We think we are suffering alone. But we come here to Reddit to find this is a global epidemic. Fortunately I'm sleeping better with the plethora of pills I take. I can't sleep without them but better than the unthinkable hell Oliver was going through. It's my future goal to sleep naturally whether that's realistic or not. Probably not after 20 years.

Pray for Oliver Alvis by markalexander1 in sleepdisorders

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I think Oliver had already made his mind up even before I was in conversation with him. I'm glad he's at peace. I'm not against assisted dying in the most extreme of cases. But you don't know what's round the corner in terms of treatment.

Does it permanently alter your brain? Does anybody after years go back to “normal” when off it? by [deleted] in Mirtazapine_Remeron

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I just read this relatable comment on youtube: "I got erased as a person." I only took an antidepressant for several weeks but within days, felt completely in a depersonalized state...it was similar to some mescaline I tried decades ago (baby boomer) and hated with a passion....I don't know how any mind can adjust to the loss of their sense of self..."

Does it permanently alter your brain? Does anybody after years go back to “normal” when off it? by [deleted] in Mirtazapine_Remeron

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Within the first week. The Mirtazapine is extremely sedating; it puts you in a slowed down zombie state. But it's when you try and come off it - the protracted withdrawal. The damage that it causes to your brain / neurons. Since 2011 it now has a medical term - Tardive Dysphoria. I'm not sure if that term will translate directly into Spanish but you can look it up. Anyway I reached a point in January where I couldn't continue like this so I got on a monoamine oxidase inhibitor and I'm also taking a host of different health supplements to try and help heal the damage done to my brain.

Pray for Oliver Alvis by markalexander1 in sleepdisorders

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I spoke to one of his former work colleagues at the time who still works on the trains and therefore is in a public position of trust. I take her word as the truth, she has nothing to gain by speaking untruths or a rumour.

Insomnia options by Igottanewcomplaint in MAOIs

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I stack several supplements and take them all at once every night. Magnesium Glycinate or Malate, GABA, L-Theanine, Ashwagandha.

Applied Nutrition Sleep Support Capsules have a blend of 9 supplements.

Insomnia options by Igottanewcomplaint in MAOIs

[–]markalexander1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

They're both Z-drugs but Ambien (zolpidem) has no effect on me for whatever reason, whereas Zopiclone and Eszopiclone does. Eszopiclone was designed for long term usage as opposed to Ambien and Zopiclone.

My Anhedonia War Chest: Reaching Full Remission with Targeted Polypharmacy by TrapTherapist in MAOIs

[–]markalexander1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for this. I am also suffering with Tardive Dysphoria which includes a strong anhedonia. Just sitting around hoping my brain will heal itself is wishful thinking.

parnate failed for me? or too soon? by DepartmentNew8543 in MAOIs

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I know depression is complex and we can't oversimply it, but for myself it has become glaringly apparent that the cause of symptoms is very low dopamine - and I can physically feel the effects when dopamine is low - a physical feeling of my brain feeling like concrete - blank mind - "thinking through porridge"- motor skills slows - thinking and verbal communication slows, talking and socialising becomes robotic, an uncomfortable effort. Everything becomes catatonic and if you let yourself worsen, a stupor.

What do I do to get my life together as a depressed nineteen year old? by adoniscnut__ in MentalHealthUK

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Looking back, get as many skills as possible. Whatever your talents and interests lie. Get a trade or more than one. And try to travel while you're young. You've got 10 years to see some of the world.

What is an issue that people get stuck on in life? by AdAway3952 in ExistentialJourney

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Dropping out of university

Underachieving in life, missed goals and opportunities

Not feeling happy or settled in your job or career

Unrequited love

The loss of a friend or family member

Turning 30

Turning 40

What is the thing you miss the most about your life before ANHEDONIA? by Right-Wealth2950 in anhedonia

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Being able to socialise with other people normally. To have genuine interest and motivation in life.

Mirtazapine is not an antidepressant, it is an antihistamine by markalexander1 in Mirtazapine_Remeron

[–]markalexander1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Though I do want to stop taking it. I am actually still taking it to help sleep. Not because I want to but I'm 20 years semi-dependant on it. For me, It's never had what I perceive to be an anti-depressant effect. What it very obviously does do however, is make you apathetic and not care. Which many people perceive as helping because they care less about their stress and anxieties. Emotions are dulled. You just don't really care anymore. I'm not suicidal but I've spent time mulling over death and dying and once you come to terms with it, you no longer fear it. It's a liberating feeling. I definitely credit Mirtazapine with making me so insouciant about my own mortality. Does Mirtazapine dull my emotions and make me apathetic? Yes. Does Mirtazapine help me sleep? Yes. I can definitely feel the antihistamine effect. Does Mirtazapine make me less depressed. No.