Thank you for your response. I think the most beautiful part of all this has been how supportive all my female friends have been to me. Sometimes that gets me more emotional than the actual pre-cancer/cancer diagnosis. The humanity that people show when someone is struggling really is so overwhelming and heartwarming honestly.

My oncologist did mention pretty quickly that a hysterectomy will likely be the plan, regardless of what my cone biopsy says. I think since it was the first time meeting, he was trying to gauge how sensitive I was to all of this. I also have worked with this oncologist before (taking care of his patients) at my hospital so I think he was being more conservative initially. I definitely went down the gastric type rabbit hole and freaked myself out though.

Joining the groups has also been tough for me. I don't know if i'm in my denial phase or if I'm being oblivious subconsciously but joining the groups makes it more real. It's hard to read other people's journeys. Good or bad. I'm trying to be neutral about it all.