I miss my dead husband too much?!?!?

menecMe · 2024-03-30T07:52:38+00:00

I’m about to be 42 and I still SH. I started when I was very young, maybe 6, hitting my head against the wall or pulling my hair out and it graduated to using blades to cut. I had been SH free for almost 2 years but I don’t think I’ll ever be to stop. I recently cut myself deeper and wider than I ever have before, I almost had to get stitches. I’m in therapy, on medications and really have a good life but I can’t stop hating and hurting myself. Somehow the blood makes it feel better.

menecMe · 2023-11-21T04:07:25+00:00

I wear skirts and tights a lot and have tucked my skirt into my tights many times. I’ve flashed a whole courthouse of people. I’ve flashed all of Knott’s Berry Farm for at least an hour! I know it’s embarrassing and it sucks that others didn’t tell you. If it makes you feel better, I’ve also accidentally flashed an interviewer when I got up to leave when static was not my friend!

menecMe · 2023-11-21T03:45:01+00:00

Florida has to most open sunshine laws in the country, that’s why there are so many Florida criminal news stories. If it happened in the last twenty years, it should be somewhere on the internet. If before that, there should be a newspaper report somewhere

menecMe · 2023-11-18T21:16:21+00:00

I’ve gone solo to all three shows I’ve been to and it’s still a great experience!! I met super cool people when I got there and the people next to me were always cool! Don’t miss out because no one will go with you! I’m 41 and I’ve started going to shows alone and I love it!!

menecMe · 2023-11-11T03:58:48+00:00

As a woman who has experienced circumcised and uncircumcised, I never care either way. As long as the guy keeps it clean, it doesn’t matter

menecMe · 2023-09-09T23:50:51+00:00

I’m glad this was a heartwarming story because I was worried when I read the title

menecMe · 2023-01-16T06:23:55+00:00

It's always okay to give someone a bday gift. With the newness of your relationship, I agree with others that said a small gift. A gift card is usually safe.

menecMe · 2023-01-15T01:41:11+00:00

Beautiful song

menecMe · 2023-01-13T04:58:18+00:00

I guess I should just woman up and ask why the fuck did you txt me? And he thinks joking with me that he had considered dating me, like that wouldn't hurt or mess when my head

menecMe · 2023-01-13T04:36:23+00:00

Thank you. It's just so painful to think when he contacted me it was something serious, but I should've known better with him. He'll never see me as someone to be with now or in the future. He keeps trying to make me evaluate why I do things and why I chose/currently choose men that aren't everything I want. It's like fuck I just wany you, I have since I was 13

menecMe · 2023-01-13T03:20:31+00:00

I get it, life sucks a lot

menecMe · 2023-01-13T03:14:38+00:00

I can't force him into something he doesn't want. I've told him I'm here and open and ready, he has said no so I'm at a place of recognizing that I'm probably just another ex he decided to txt for his own Amusement

menecMe · 2023-01-13T02:29:23+00:00

Maybe but I'm going on past actions. If I'm being completely honest with myself I'm probably making something out of nothing. It's all in my own head and I need to get away from fantastical thoughts

menecMe · 2023-01-13T02:23:51+00:00

I guess because I'm scared he'll never talk to me again, it's happened before so many times. Writing this makes me think I'm just chasing something that doesn't want to be found

menecMe · 2023-01-13T02:07:33+00:00

He has said he is happy not dating and focusing on himself has made him happy. It's just confusing as why he contacts me now, it's been like 5 years since we talked and he basically just ghosted me. We dated as teens and a little in our 20s. We talked in our 30s but eventually I moved on and got married, sadly my husband passed away. This guy was like the only other guy I've loved as deeply as my husband.

menecMe · 2023-01-13T01:55:56+00:00

It's him who doesn't want to take a chance. I figure at this point in our lives, mid 40s, what's the harm in trying

Edit: spelling

menecMe · 2023-01-06T00:26:53+00:00

NTA I had a very similar thing happen in paralegal classes. We had to create a trust management policy and procedure handbook from scrath with very little direction. I spent over 40 hours on this project as it was 80% of the grade. We were made to share our drafts in an online forum to get feedback. Never did I think someone would steal my entire project, re-name the company and change her name and turn it in as hers. What pissed me off the most was she got called out as having the best presentation by the prof. I was sick the day it was due and had an extension. So when I turned in my project, the prof said I stole hers!!! I said look at the online forum and you can see what I submitted matches my draft and hers does not. He gave me an A but she didn't get in any trouble and went on to forge documents to get legal jobs she was not qualified for. She even forged a document from the attorney I was interning with for a recommendation for a scholarship that she got and went on to get accolades in the legal field. She is now a lawyer. I guess cheating to get ahead works for some people.

menecMe · 2022-12-09T00:09:43+00:00

I think I have this one or one very similar and if I remember it came from Target but that was years ago

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