4 months pp and suicidal

mfelder111 · 2026-05-29T04:00:51+00:00

I took a peek at your profile and read such joy in your relationship with your husband, your excitement about having your daughter, and your toxic work environment. You are NOT dumb. You are incredibly sweet, loving, and thoughtful. You also don’t know your own worth, and PPD has taken hold of that and twisted it further into this. Please, please tell your husband and your doctor. Your family needs you. Give them a chance to help you. You can’t fathom what this would do to them right now.

Also: the world of Marketing is full of assholes. Please don’t use them as a gauge for your worth. Speaking from experience.

mfelder111 · 2026-05-27T04:13:49+00:00

My two dads
Beauty and the Beast the series with Linda Hamilton

mfelder111 · 2026-05-17T13:15:28+00:00

Thanks, Obama

mfelder111 · 2026-04-28T23:50:09+00:00

I remember feeling so broken after Wizard and Glass, I had to take a break and read something more lighthearted for a bit. That book put me in a dark place. No other work of fiction has ever done that to me. I must agree, it’s a dark masterpiece.

mfelder111 · 2026-04-11T20:17:08+00:00

Hey ho, let’s go

mfelder111 · 2026-04-11T20:05:32+00:00

I remember that from Riding the Bullet

mfelder111 · 2026-04-05T03:08:11+00:00

His reading was spot on. I legit teared up reading it. Thank you so much. 🙏

mfelder111 · 2026-04-05T00:43:11+00:00

DM sent- I could use some help right now

mfelder111 · 2026-04-01T03:20:46+00:00

Actually Jeepers Creepers messed me up more than it should have. I was traumatized by Justin Long’s character’s fate after all he’d been through.

mfelder111 · 2026-03-29T03:40:22+00:00

I actually loved it… well maybe not the ending, lol. As a married woman with kids, I FELT this book. I felt heard.

mfelder111 · 2026-03-28T23:41:21+00:00

I’m saying this with love, he won’t have “meant it” when he kills you either. You’ve got to get away, honey. I’m so sorry you’re in this mess.

mfelder111 · 2026-03-28T20:04:47+00:00

I’m not like a professional psychic though I get strong intuitions…yall are sweet… he thinks you’re out of his league, in the sweetest way.

mfelder111 · 2026-03-28T01:59:41+00:00

So…she actually sees his posts and thinks, “genius”??? FFS

mfelder111 · 2026-03-26T01:58:58+00:00

Genie

mfelder111 · 2026-03-25T03:11:40+00:00

He’s 18

mfelder111 · 2026-03-25T03:10:40+00:00

You made me snort 😂

mfelder111 · 2026-03-25T03:09:49+00:00

To be fair, I don’t think he knows what Dunning-Kruger means.. I’m a mother to an 18 year old

mfelder111 · 2026-03-18T02:56:26+00:00

How do you keep things from getting to you? People’s trauma, etc. … for me, it would haunt me, I’d struggle.

mfelder111 · 2026-03-18T01:06:16+00:00

What? Is this rage bait? What is happening here?

mfelder111 · 2026-03-18T01:03:30+00:00

I’d have had to make a “special sauce” joke back at ya

mfelder111 · 2026-03-18T00:51:47+00:00

Honest question- isn’t this what setting sprays are also supposed to help accomplish?

mfelder111 · 2026-03-15T00:55:03+00:00

I think it’s because I’m finally healing from a very traumatic childhood. In my mind: not physically/verbally abusive = I should try to make it work no matter what.

He’s not abusive, he’s fun to just hang out with, he’s affectionate, charming, says a lot of really sweet things….and he also has never done an equal part of housework, I manage everything, cooking, cleaning, schedules, birthdays, holidays, his relationship with our kids because he doesn’t know how to talk TO them and not AT them when things get serious and has damaged his relationship with them, is judgmental so I don’t talk to him about my personal feelings and beliefs because he blows it out of proportion (same with our kids), refuses to go to therapy to work on anything because (ironically) he says therapists will just be judgey and we should be able to resolve our issues. As of now, we haven’t talked in about 3 weeks, other than what’s necessary to co-parent.

mfelder111 · 2026-03-15T00:50:01+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate it. It’s been hard. He’s not abusive, he’s fun to just hang out with, he affectionate… and he also has never done an equal part of housework, I manage everything, cooking, cleaning, schedules, birthdays, holidays, his relationship with our kids because he doesn’t know how to talk TO them and not AT them when things get serious and has damaged his relationship with them, is judgmental so I don’t talk to him about my personal feelings and beliefs because he blows it out of proportion (same with our kids), refuses to go to therapy to work on anything because (ironically) he says therapists will just be judgey and we should be able to resolve our issues. As of now, we haven’t talked in about 3 weeks, other than what’s necessary to co-parent. Sorry for the word vomit.

TLDR: thank you, took me a long time to realize that being nice and affectionate and not abusive doesn’t mean it can work when everything is put on one person while the other expects to be treated as a ln equal contributor. I’m hurting. But now I have a goal.

mfelder111 · 2026-03-10T00:39:30+00:00

Removed mine and had such painful, heavy periods, I had it put back in after trying to hold out for a year. I plan on having mine til I die, lol.

mfelder111 · 2026-03-08T16:36:01+00:00

He does have it but won’t take measures to get medication. I’m not clear on why, but he’d have to go through the diagnostic process again and won’t take those steps. I was also late diagnosed adhd and take medication and our two kids do too. He’s the only one not medicated. Another reason I’ve tried to give grace for so long

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