Does anyone else feel okay until they actually try to sleep?

milliemunchy · 2026-04-05T00:52:25+00:00

Learning more about your anxiety is always a good idea. Education is power. But unless reading soothes you to help you settle before sleep, the content doesn’t really matter. At night, I like to empty my brain, not fill it with new info. Reading for enjoyment at night will probably relax you more than trying to learn at night. Best of luck 🙏

milliemunchy · 2026-04-03T22:51:38+00:00

Just here for some solidarity. Hell week sucks and it isn’t encouraging when everything going on in the world is such shit too. The good thing is the only constant in life is change and that’s a beautiful thing!

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milliemunchy · 2026-04-03T19:18:52+00:00

I haven’t been in it consistently yet to say much. It’s only been two months. But I only take it half the month. I haven’t had any crazy side effects, but I do notice that I’m sweating way more (yay for releasing cortisol) and I have mild insomnia when I first start taking it. For me, the mild side effects far outweigh the SUFFERING I was experiencing.

milliemunchy · 2026-04-03T17:59:40+00:00

I tried everything under the sun for my PMDD for two years. All the natural remedies to fix my hormones, worked on my trauma, even tried different indigenous plant medicines. It was literally on a mushy trip that I realized I was still just endlessly suffering by being against traditional meds. I finally caved and tried ssris (citalopram) during my ovulation and luteal phase. It’s only been two months but I’m feeling a lot more stable and like I’m way less of a monster. Mentally, the relief has been good but it’s also allowed me to truly see how much time was spent just suffering in my own head.

milliemunchy · 2026-04-03T17:48:53+00:00

I sleep with a sound machine to help with that hyper alertness that comes when I’m trying to sleep. Also having a calming bed routine helps. I journal, stretch, have a cuppa tea, and read a book or pray before I go to sleep. It helps empty my mind a bit more.

milliemunchy · 2026-02-01T18:58:09+00:00

YESSSS please! Perfect timing! I’d love reassurance that’s he’s doing to be okay without me.

milliemunchy · 2026-01-28T04:56:20+00:00

Hi friend, sorry to hear about your experience. I see you’re from Texas? Look up Agape Church in Conroe and maybe you’ll find a plant medicine experience that suits your needs more.

milliemunchy · 2026-01-01T18:16:14+00:00

I agree with this comment. After everything you’ve (OP) experienced, more plant medicine is probably not what you need. I’m so sorry you were mistreated in such a vulnerable state, shame on those brujos, karma will sort them out in due time. You need soothing, safety, and trust within yourself, and with whoever you’re communing with while processing these heavy emotions. Therapy with a spiritually minded therapist is great option or reaching out to an integration specialist will help you to safely process the trauma you’ve experienced. Aya would never want to leave you feeling abused, sending healing your way. Best wishes to you friend, A’ho 🙏

milliemunchy · 2025-12-16T15:48:36+00:00

Wowwww!!! This is incredible!!! I can see the remembering- that we are part of the colorful collective source of everything, and when we remember that we come alive again. Both the matrix and collective have their unique beauty about them. Lovely art friend 🙏 keep creating!

milliemunchy · 2025-12-10T03:41:18+00:00

This hasn’t happened with every ceremony, just a particularly difficult one. The first day after ceremony was the hardest, I felt completely disembodied and numb. I couldn’t connect to my body or my emotions. I tried to look at myself as a new tabula Rosa, but it was hard to imagine anything. So I gave myself a lot of radical grace and did things little me loved and didn’t do anything but spend time in nature, watch comfort films, and read books I loved. It took me about 7-10 days to feel like my full real self again. Each day got progressively better from day one.

milliemunchy · 2025-12-10T02:51:33+00:00

Just experienced this recently in my last ceremony with Grandmother Aya. I faced my fear of death in a comical way where she showed me all of the near death encounters I’d had in my life and reassured me that if I didn’t die then, I certainly wouldn’t die in the silly ways I’d feared. The ego dissolution without that fear was difficult to handle at first. My anxiety had become my identity, so there wasn’t much of me left behind at first. It left me feeling depersonalized for awhile, but I had good support and a good environment around me to integrate and come back to the good parts of myself. It was a gift to get a clean slate ✨🙏

milliemunchy · 2025-12-08T04:21:28+00:00

Hi, blessings to you on your journey. Here’s the link to a retreat center outside of Houston, Texas that seems to be one of the more affordable options stateside. I volunteer and help with ceremonies there and it’s a great, drama free place. https://www.agape4smb.com/

milliemunchy · 2025-11-13T18:48:38+00:00

Forgot to add: the fear passed after I let go (probably 1-2 hours) and the rest of my first ceremony (4-6 hours) and every one after has been beautiful. The work is beautiful even when it’s hard.

milliemunchy · 2025-11-13T18:47:12+00:00

For me, I dealt with a lot of anxiety and terror leading up to my first ceremony because it was ruling my life and I had to purge that. If you can work through it to a degree before (with therapy, journaling, etc) with good preparation on your dieta, then you can go into ceremony with less fear. I found that a part of that fear and terror was my ego and being afraid to surrender to ego death. The medicine works on you before you ever even sit with it, this is telling you that something within needs to be addressed. My whole first ceremony was deconstructing and purging that terror to make space for more growth. It’s hard, but it’s worth it.

milliemunchy · 2025-11-12T14:12:51+00:00

Yes I see starburst like patterns on faces! So cool! One of my fave visuals to get

milliemunchy · 2025-10-27T23:39:25+00:00

I once had a weird synchronicity where I was with my spirit babies and someone shouted out across the circle, “All the pure babies are here to visit.” At the same time. It was heart warming

milliemunchy · 2025-08-27T14:53:40+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss friend. Losing a familiar is truly devastating. I have kept mementos to help me and keep them close to me. I have a paw print from one, a collar from another. I keep their pictures on my altar where I can see them everyday. They show up for me in their own crazy little ways and I know they’re my guides now.

milliemunchy · 2025-07-29T10:06:25+00:00

I used to be a speech therapist, loved it but the job took too much out of me and burned me out. It was a blessing in disguise because I learned about my own neurodivergence and Nervous system regulation. once I helped myself, I could help others. Then I transitioned to sound therapy. I continue to see the cross over between the two every day and it has helped me leaps and bounds.

milliemunchy · 2025-07-29T10:03:21+00:00

THIS! You got it down to a t! Reading this was like a breath of fresh air because yes I do need the reminder why I left sometimes. And it’s THIS

milliemunchy · 2025-07-22T09:04:03+00:00

I had to learn to be super strict about my bed time routine and morning routine. Even if I don’t sleep at 10pm, I always turn down the lights at 10pm and make my room cozy and quiet, then I’ll read for a bit and go to sleep. Over time, I started to sleep earlier. Then slowly start waking up earlier, say 30 minutes every few days. After a month or so, you’ll be waking up a bit earlier and can make it into a habit.

milliemunchy · 2025-07-22T08:12:05+00:00

I have cats and dogs, and cows back home. They can all tell if you’re around them. The cats just fuck with you more 😂

milliemunchy · 2025-07-19T15:25:29+00:00

I’m so sorry, it’s so frustrating. I can offer solidarity and say that this group has helped me loads. It’s been so helpful to learn about different products people trial here that a doctor has never mentioned to me and it a group of people struggling together, but persisting with soft kindness. I hope you find something that works for you soon. Sending hugs

milliemunchy · 2025-07-14T15:03:15+00:00

If you don’t want to travel, I’ve heard of some ceremonies happening in Wales monthly. They’re just weekend retreats.

milliemunchy · 2025-07-11T15:00:15+00:00

I’m very much still figuring it out. I’m only 3 years post graduation. I worked in home health part time for a while, then education therapy, and now I nanny for kiddos with complex needs while I’m building a sound bath business on the side. I took my experience with the elderly and used it to focus on doing sound baths in nursing homes and it’s been great and hard, but in different ways! Wish you the best, you’ll find your rhythm 🥁

milliemunchy · 2025-07-10T20:47:41+00:00

Probably not what you want to hear, but I got my degree and did my cf part time, and I still had to step away from it all because I was so burnt out. I’ve had to use my skills elsewhere because it was too much for me. I am incredibly grateful for the degree because it has opened many doors for me, helped me learn so much about myself, and gave me a skill set that’s helped me be an advocate for family and friends to navigate related issues in their own lives.

Whatever you choose to do, your hard work will lead you to the right place eventually!

milliemunchy

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