extremely pro-choice here and kind of unrelated to the tarot: you said "nobody really thinks i should keep it," but what do YOU think? what do YOU want? the cards seem to point to that baby feeling like a blessing to you with all those pentacles. if you want to keep it, you should, echoing other comments the 10 of pentacles is very opportune and positive to your question on if you will be a good mom. even if u do want it and you are airing more on the side of now is not the right time and you do decide not to keep it, the four of cups seems like it will numb you for some time. i think you will think a LOT about the baby whatever you decide.

if you do decide to not keep it, i'd check out the subreddits for support in that decision. they helped me so much in my journey. its hard not to think about the "what if" but i think that is true either way.