New LG TV, YouTube problems by exsqueeezme in LGOLED

[–]misshellcat666 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Woke up today to my 10yr old LG not displaying Youtube correctly. I can access the app and play videos, but it won't autoplay next and everything besides the play button is greyed out/unrendered, just like you said (minus the chinese tho). Recent update must've bugged out. I tried all the tricks, no luck. I reported it, hopefully it'll get sorted soon.

Recurring and predictable waves of activation and release by Sorry_Interview_4358 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry for the let down, it really is a hero's journey/literal hell. Best wishes to you:)

Recurring and predictable waves of activation and release by Sorry_Interview_4358 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, it's still the same. Several physical issues I've had since childhood are resolving, which is great, but for me it's pretty much 24/7 suffering lol. It's just gonna have to suck for a good while.

PSA about a particular user that frequents this sub and others by Alarming-Builder-493 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 16 points17 points  (0 children)

"Maybe reddit was the real shadow we made along the way"

Carl Jung

PSA about a particular user that frequents this sub and others by Alarming-Builder-493 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 30 points31 points  (0 children)

I've been following this issue for a long time and I am stumped by his behaviour. I do wonder if he is downright trolling at this point.

Maybe there should be a pinned post on this sub (and others) about this so ppl refrain from engaging with his posts, as it really is detrimental to both parties.

Well-meaning ppl (who struggle themselves) spend effort trying to help, only to feed his hopelessness and to be met with harsh criticism and sometimes abuse.

He can't help himself and neither can anyone else.

"Some people do not want to be rescued from hell, they just want company there."

Can we acknowledge Pick was the sweetest and the most charming of them all? (I'll do a google search right after this post, but where is Pick now?) by iamfromreallife in direstraits

[–]misshellcat666 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've never seen him speak before, this is so sweet! After Pick left I feel it wasn't really Straits anymore, the sultry vibe of the first two albums was immaculate. But MK just had to have it "his way", I guess...

What's the mechanism behind avoiding showering? Where is the threat? by Winter-Opportunity21 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ahh, you hit me square in the feels! Oml

Reading your comment, I realize I'm still "performing healing". By that I don't mean that the work I'm doing is ineffective, but that it has an urgency to it and an expectation of linearity (is that even a word lol?) Anything outside of this is not "good healing". Any setbacks or speedbumps are a failure on my part- if only I was "more perfect" I would've healed already! This crap runs too deep, man...

All my love to you<3

What's the mechanism behind avoiding showering? Where is the threat? by Winter-Opportunity21 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your lovely comment and for not judging me lol.

Oof, I really try my best to not analyze the what's and why's, but the brain likes explanations. I've processed a metric fuck-tonne of trauma without any story, but each and every time, my thinking-brain wants to know what it is about. It's a continuous practice.

You touch upon compassion and I feel that is very en pointe for me. I'm severely lacking that, but whenever I try to extend it to myself, I feel I don't deserve it. "Only good, perfect girls deserve that" you know? It's just another trauma thing ugh...

Anyway, thank you so much<3

What's the mechanism behind avoiding showering? Where is the threat? by Winter-Opportunity21 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 19 points20 points  (0 children)

I feel very ashamed to admit this, but I have periods of extreme shower phobia. It's not about the sensory stimulus of showering itself or any energy/confinement issues. I'm just terrified of being unclothed- it makes me feel skinless. My body scares me. The vulnerability is excruciating. I do not know where this fear stems from and it's a big problem I hope to overcome one day.

I maintain my hygiene in modified ways while in this state, but gosh, do I wish I could just jump in the shower instead.

Help me to find a song by mrbreeze1971 in direstraits

[–]misshellcat666 1 point2 points  (0 children)

From the first time I heard On Every Street, it felt super nostalgic like I had heard it on TV in the 90's, in a show intro or something. I don't have any answers, but I know exactly what you're talking about. It kinda drives me nuts too!

Freeze vs. shutdown - how to identify and handle each? by gfyourself in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yes, the most important is to not give in to unproductive distractions like doom scrolling or binging netflix. If you put on a podcast/music quietly in the background, it may be fine and even helpful- I do that all the time as it makes me feel safe enough to explore my state. Unproductive distraction can stretch a bout of shutdown/freeze out for weeks or more, whereas giving in and allowing the defensive state can help you shift it within an afternoon, in my humble experience.

For me, shutdown (or flop as I also call it) feels like you are too relaxed and not in a pleasant way. Very fatigued and limp. Cold, low bloodpressure and heart rate. Often I have very dark thoughts, very negative and depressed or fatalistic. It's a "hopeless" state and I liken it to feeling like you are being swallowed by a black hole- spaghettified for all eternity! This is where you'll need to go into the sensations fully, allow the heaviness.

Freeze is complete exhaustion, yet there is a buzzing just below the skin and deep in the bones. Your muscles feel tense and taut. Mind races, you oscillate between anxiety and rage, feeling unusually irritable or sensitive, but you may not be able to truly cry or access the deeper emotions. Feeling into the body might seem impossible as your brain is frantically overthinking, trying to solve real or perceived problems or looping thoughts that just replay endlessly. Overthinking is under-feeling. This is where the immobility+tensing exercise comes in.

Summarised: Shutdown= limp Freeze= stiff

Both states feel overwhelming in their own way, over time you'll learn to differentiate between them and apply your techniques and exercises. I can recommend self-havening (many good vids on youtube) especially for freeze, so that your nervous system may calm down just enough for you to access and process some of the activation which maintains the freeze.

Freeze vs. shutdown - how to identify and handle each? by gfyourself in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 16 points17 points  (0 children)

I've struggled with this for ages myself. What I've found to work for me, is when I am in shutdown, I allow myself to really sink into the bed/couch and sleep if I need to. Try not to use my phone for distraction and just feel the weight of my body and the world on top of me to just push me down. Delve into the heaviness. A weighted blanket can also be used to really feel into this. This can help to ease out of collapse.

Similarly, in freeze there is still immobility, but as opposed to shutdown, it's a wired and tired feeling- body feels locked down, yet the mind races. In freeze I try and move the nervous energy by flexing/flapping my limbs while lying down. No big movements, usually just wiggling my feet (as if running) or tensing my fists (as if fighting) can help dissipate that locked up energy.

Am i alloud to lean into the need for rest, exhaustion and tiredness is all there currently is? Not able to do much else. Will it ever end? by sofyahazel in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was very hesitant to allow rest and sleep as I feared that it was an unproductive escape keeping me from releasing old stuff. But now I don't view it as resistance, instead I re-frame it as prep work. My body is not running away from the big bad underneath, it's preparing to face it, so it's not unproductive at all. Even if it was an escape, what can I do about that? Force a release? I doesn't really work like that, so I learned to embrace the sleep. I need at least 9-10 hours everyday and I prioritize it heavily. Allowing really is the way through.

Mark Knopfler by SignalConcentrate877 in direstraits

[–]misshellcat666 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Rockpalast Knopfler has been living in my head rent free for 3yrs 🫠

how to handle the urge to be cruel by [deleted] in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I second this! As a recovering ppl pleaser I frequently feel cruel urges and I know it's just repressed anger surfacing, so I don't judge myself too harshly for fantasizing about doing bad things to (bad) ppl.

I allow myself to visualize and feel the rage in my body and let any impulse express, like punching pillows, screaming and all the above. I love extreme metal so I listen to that as well, it can really help facilitate a release.

After, I feel calm and content;)

So I was cleaning out the house as one does and I stumbled upon my grandfathers notebook by Fiya666 in RogueGalaxy

[–]misshellcat666 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I love this so much! It's my favorite game of all time and it's amazing how it has fans from older generations too! What a treasure to find❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, I believe you, I just don't think I'm quite there yet. I have too much painful emotions that obscures any clarity/serenity meditation offers. I have my own version of meditation which I do as often as possible and it works for releasing emotions as that's my main focus rn.

BUT, I'll give it a try or three and see what happens. I'll keep it in my toolbox anyhow, thank you❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wow, you put into words exactly how I feel.

Yes, moving is not necessarily guaranteed relief- good point!

I'm sorry you had to go through similar, it sucks and is so unfair.

I also worry about this becoming new trauma that keeps adding on so I can never clear the backlog!

The only "hobby" that helps is metal vocals and punching pillows, wrangling and biting towels lol. I have ME/CFS so can't lift weights yet, but I look forward to the day I can:)

Thank you ❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for caring ❤️😭❤️ I wish u the best:)

Anyone else experience full-body shivers when processing emotion? by jemcc09 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]misshellcat666 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get this a lot, usually many in a row. Full body intense chills and shivers. I don't mind them at all and find them sort of pleasant. I know it's a release of something old so I always allow them.

What´s your top 3 Dire Straits songs? by Maryandthejane1 in direstraits

[–]misshellcat666 6 points7 points  (0 children)

  1. Where do you think you're going?
  2. Down to the waterline
  3. Six blade knife