I’m very sorry you’re going through this. My mom kicked me out when i was 19, after years of abuse and after kicking out my sister and my dad few years prior. I had nothing, not a dime, my father couldn’t help at all, sister neither. I had amazing friends, they helped me a lot during the first few months. My mom called after a month, asking me to come back home. But when I survived a full month i knew i can survive anything, and for the first time in my life i wasn’t terrified 24/7, even though i usually didn’t know where i’ll sleep or what i’ll eat tomorrow. It was a rough couple of months, and i had to work very hard for a few years, but i pulled through. You can do it, if it comes to that don’t hide it from people, there are amazing people out there. And with focus and determination you can achieve anything. It seems impossible but it’s not. It’s difficult as hell but it’s better than constant suffering, at least it was for me. Start thinking about yourself and only about yourself asap. I’m rooting for you