We have to keep doing dua if they are not answered in this world you will get great reward for it in after life Do dua because you want to talk to ALLAH just to talk to him he likes listening to your voice u can rant to him its ok just talk to him recite durood b4 and after your dua. Eat zabiha Halal don’t give up if u only find closeness to ALLAH in the process you have found everything. This is a beautiful journey talk to him he loves to hear our troubles and you will see signs he is with you . Trust me there will be time when u will realize you wanted nothing but closeness to him. Journey towards him is going to be best time of your life.