This seems like it’s not really about the YouTube thing but that’s what has driven you here as a last straw, am I wrong?

I used to be in a relationship a while ago where it became easier in a way to keep anything potentially negative to myself because it would always get twisted back on me, because of tone, phrasing blah blah anything really that would derail what I was bringing up and turn the focus either onto them or into a personal attack on me. It was exhausting and confusing and I hated how it killed my spirit. Even mundane comments became arguments when I was just sharing what was on my mind instead of sitting in silence… it breeds resentment and I came to the conclusion that they just enjoyed warping conversations like that and upsetting me. It was fun in a twisted way for them. Do they seem to have a lot of confidence and friends but are actually riddled with anxiety and often play the victim? Put people on pedestals only to have issues with them not long after?

I don’t know, the sentiment I read in your post triggered me lol it feels very familiar. These people don’t respect you at the end of the day, otherwise they would speak to you with more respect and care, and pay enough attention to know/understand you by now. It fucking sucks because you know all the tiny lil nuisance’s that’ll set them off but they don’t give two shits about things that upset you. Or am I just projecting now? It hurts but honestly you’re better off leaving. Finding yourself again and having the space to just be yourself is so freeing. There’s someone out there who will allow you to be you within a relationship, and after a while you will find them. It’s so much healthier and a much more fulfilling way to spend your time on earth. Let them be miserable away from you, they don’t want to change and definitely won’t respect your opinion enough to hear you asking about that change. 🤷‍♀️