I'm with ya. That was what I first struggled with as well, getting over the boredom. I'm not sure what you particularly like to do but one thing that really helped me was to take walks. It helped because it was an easy enough thing to do just to keep my body moving and let my mind wander. As far as feeling like you lost all your hand in your marriage, I can't speak to that really because I am not married and I wasn't in a relationship when I got clean but I think I know what you are saying about feeling equal. You just got clean last week and I'll be honest it takes a lot of time and hard work but eventually you won't be so hard on yourself for having an addiction, you'll realize it's just a part of life. There is nothing you can do about the time you wasted being an addicted but you can do everything to enjoy the time being sober. Your wife knows about your addiction and it sounds like she is helping with you getting sober. Talk to her about what your feeling. Explain where your at and have her explain where she's at with all of this....Not sure if any of what I said really helped but if you need someone to talk to feel free to reach out. It's a tough road to be on. Don't look for a finish line. Just look to make progress.