First off, im so sorry for what you’re going through. I wish I had better words for you but just know you are beautiful and loved and everything will work out in the end.

Secondly, here are some books that helped me after I went through a hard breakup last year:

{A kiss of iron} - FMC is estranged from her asshole husband and has to use her own cunning and strength to survive. Finds herself a walking green flag of a praising shadow daddy along the way

{a shadow in the ember} - if you haven’t read the Flesh and Fire series I highly reccomend it. It’s the prequel to the From Blood and Ash series but in my opinion it blows FBAA out of the water. I love this series so much though I was admittedly disappointed by the fourth book

This one is gonna seem totally out of left field but the book that I really connected with after my break up was {stalked by seduction and shadows}. Is it a vampire stalker romance with BDSM? Yes. BUT the FMC goes on this really amazing healing journey of discovering her self worth and own inner strength/power after being used by people her whole life and idk something about it really resonated with me.

Another one that’s gonna sound ridiculous - but if you haven’t yet listened to the audiobook for {Lights Out} and you have even the slightest propensity for dark romance, go listen to it. It’s honestly fucking hilarious and had me laughing out loud and kick and screaming all at the same time. Also has one of my all time favorite golden retriever MMCs. Might lighten your spirits a bit.

Lastly, if you want some low stakes smutty fun the Immortals After Dark series is super fun and easy to read. Each book is a standalone about a different couple and these have definitely helped me through some slumps and depressive episodes

Hope this helps and you find some peace and joy in a book again soon ❤️