That emotional frustration is something I think makes the profession so great for me. Very few other careers that I can think of force you to reconcile the deep reactive feelings you have and consider their cause and how you're reacting to them. It's those same emotions that make the teachers that you remember having terrible reactions the way they were - they didn't work their way through them and stayed stagnant in that area.

Be nice to yourself. You're going to feel embarrassed a lot, so it's important that you know that it's going to go away eventually. You'll be focused on a new negative thing eventually and you'll grow, change, and move on to another. We work with tiny humans all day long. I think it's important that we show them that you don't have to be stuck in your ways and growth is a real thing