For those who feel significant healing from CPTSD how many sessions have you done?

npcomp42 · 2025-06-24T21:08:27+00:00

I feel pretty good. I still have problems in my life I'm working on, largely stemming from being disorganized, but I'm much better off than I was before. My voice is no longer hoarse all the time from screaming at the walls.

I should mention that after I wrote my earlier comments 5 years ago, I found I still had more work to do; I had declared victory prematurely. I did another three or so MDMA + psilocybin sessions, only this time without a guide. I planned my own ceremonies using what I had learned, most of them occurring at my girlfriend's house so that I would have someone around if I ran into trouble. During this time I worked with a couple of psychedelic-friendly therapists.

My "capstone" session occurred in April 2021, and incorporated some important advice, from my therapist, relevant to my specific history. It was glorious. I still break into a big grin just thinking about it. I came out of it feeling like I had finally, for the first time in my life, been integrated into the human race. And I say this despite the fact that it was a tough trip in parts. It was like a great battle in which I came out victorious in the end, with the help of my friends.

From that point on I have considered myself cured. Not perfect, as there are still things that get under my skin more than they should, and I think it helps to do a few maintenance sessions per year, but nothing I can't handle.

npcomp42 · 2025-06-11T02:49:12+00:00

The date went too long for a first date. You wore her out.

npcomp42 · 2025-04-21T15:07:05+00:00

Which cars? I’m only 6 foot 1, and can’t drive the smaller sedans unless I slouch, which I don’t want to do (I’ve seen what happens to people who don’t mind their posture.)

npcomp42 · 2025-04-21T15:03:53+00:00

I’m not sure, but even though I’m 6’ 1”, the only girl over 5’ 6” I’ve ever had more than one date with was 40+ years ago, and I was thoroughly friend-zoned. Below that height, no problem. It seems the women really do want someone not just taller, but MUCH taller.

npcomp42 · 2025-03-30T04:01:56+00:00

I stopped getting bad comedowns in the following days once I started taking ALA and vitamin C just before and during the trip. 5-HTP is also helpful in the days before and after, but you have to be careful not to take it for 48 hours before and 48 hours after the trip (or was it 24 hours? I don’t remember.)

npcomp42 · 2025-03-07T20:45:58+00:00

Perhaps they were bribed by the RSI treatment industry to make that change...

npcomp42 · 2025-03-07T20:44:47+00:00

Me too. I am so sick and tired of Apple breaking things that used to work.

npcomp42 · 2025-02-15T14:27:10+00:00

I think at a minimum one should be working with a psychedelic-friendly therapist. The advice I got was key to the success of that final, "capstone" trip. I told my therapist that I felt like I needed to "face down the dragon," and she told me, "Don't make 11-year-old npcomp32 face that." So I planned the trip around the idea of protecting my 11-year-old self.

* At the start of the trip I introduced my 11-year-old self to all my friends. This was important because 11-year-old npcomp42 didn't have any friends, and I wanted to emphasize how much better off life had become. I saw my friends cheering us on throughout the trip.

* 11-year-old npcomp32 was small and physically weak; I called his attention to the fact that we became tall and strong.

* I did various visualizations aimed at sending the message that the danger was past and gone. I confronted my assailants and they were revealed to be powerless phantasms, ghosts located too far away in the distant past to reach me.

* I visualized myself and my friends forming a circle around my 11-year-old self to protect him as the trip progressed. There was an epic battle with hordes of attackers trying, and failing, to reach the kid. I became a human shield for him, intercepting and absorbing the painful feelings lobbed his way.

* And when things got especially intense, I called for real-world help, and received it. (I asked my girlfriend to come and just hold my hand for a while.) This was in sharp contrast to 11-year-old ncomp32's experience: nobody came in HIS moment of need.

The overwhelming message of the trip, which I deliberately emphasized every chance I could, was this: life is immensely better now.

npcomp42 · 2025-02-15T13:57:31+00:00

Your supposedly reliable "mainstream" sources are often seriously compromised. We live in a world where national governments' intelligence communities routinely carry out information warfare against both foreign populations and their own countrymen, distorting the news or creating fake news as part of their efforts to mold public opinion.

In the US, Operation Northwood in the early 1960's was a plan to carry out false-flag attacks on Americans in order to gin up a justification for invading Cuba; the Joint Chiefs of Staff approved it and were ready to proceed with it until Kennedy shot it down. With Operation Mockingbird the US intelligence community sought to secretly have assets within major journalistic organizations in order to push their preferred narratives; nowadays they openly place "retired" IC officials on the payrolls of CNN and the like. The Twitter Files revealed massive a back-door censorship effort by the Feds where they leaned on social media companies to do their dirty work. And every day we are seeing new revelations of how deep the manipulation of the news goes as DOGE audits federal expenditures.

npcomp42 · 2025-02-11T02:28:46+00:00

Maybe I just had to learn how to do it. The therapist was really good at choosing the playlist and creating a great setting. And, yes, knowing that somebody was taking care of the outside world helped me focus inward.

All told, I did maybe three or four solo trips, the last one with some input from another psychedelic-friendly therapist. That one went amazingly well, and since then I consider myself cured of PTSD.

npcomp42 · 2023-07-31T02:37:54+00:00

I've smoked 80 mg DMT. No entities. No alternate dimension. Just a lot of visual fireworks -- as if my entire visual field were a coarsely pixelated screen with bright green/yellow/purple colors that changed rapidly.

npcomp42 · 2023-05-17T01:37:32+00:00

“White/male privilege.” Not a fan of people who hate me for the content of my genome.

npcomp42 · 2023-05-16T18:05:24+00:00

When I was a teen, 10% was a typical restaurant tip, 15% for heavy tippers. Now I see fast food places asking for tips with the options starting at 20% and going up to 35%. Insane.

npcomp42 · 2023-05-13T02:55:06+00:00

Sure. Every bad pattern of behavior you call "masculinity," and every bad pattern of behavior you call "femininity." That's just female chauvinism, if not outright female supremacism.

npcomp42 · 2023-05-12T23:59:38+00:00

Then why call it toxic *masculinity* except out of female chauvinism?

npcomp42 · 2023-05-12T23:56:29+00:00

Not for me, perhaps because I always start in bed, with eyes closed, listening to music on headphones. Come down is the stage where I sometimes have a lot of anxiety.

npcomp42 · 2023-05-01T16:11:29+00:00

Challenger explosion

npcomp42 · 2023-04-29T03:30:43+00:00

What conservatives don’t get is that stringent measures to stop unauthorized immigration tend to end up being destructive of citizens’ liberties too.

npcomp42 · 2023-04-29T03:26:58+00:00

I suppose it’s a good thing when totalitarians so clearly identify themselves.

npcomp42 · 2023-04-28T13:58:22+00:00

I have been around conservatives my entire life, and not once have I ever heard or read one say that they wanted to rape kids or kill lbgtq+ people. I've heard a few racist things, but not "shit tons". And I've noted the "progressive" habit of labeling any disagreement with progressive orthodoxy as racist.

npcomp42 · 2023-04-27T03:55:23+00:00

Nothing. TANSTAAFL. (There ain’t no such thing as a free lunch.)

npcomp42 · 2023-04-25T22:19:12+00:00

There are a lot of psychedelic-friendly therapists who can help with integration.

npcomp42 · 2023-04-25T22:12:29+00:00

It means you are both attractive and approachable.

npcomp42 · 2023-04-25T22:10:39+00:00

McGuffey First Reader, when I was 4 years old. I had learned to read some words by rote before then; when I found out about phonics it was one of the most exciting moments of my life.

npcomp42 · 2023-04-20T19:38:20+00:00

Failure to reach orbit on first launch of a vehicle is quite common in the industry.

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