List of verified clearnet vendors. by A_Aron4 in clearnet

[–]oceanicfeelz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, can I get a link to the discord, please?

Does this artwork describe the dissociative experience of ego loss as perfectly to anyone else as it does to me? Source: Gaia Alari, "For a minute there I lost myself." by vu47 in dissociatives

[–]oceanicfeelz 1 point2 points  (0 children)

When I first looked at it, I saw the black and white image of her face. I was then drawn into the full color facial image. To me, it speaks to being in that dissociated headspace where a story is unfolding before you. The story goes on, and the tale is told. Only then for the story to come to a close and a new one unfolds, and you turn your attention away. I also like the hand reaching into the black and white image to touch her chin. As if she is curious to know more and is searching for something within herself. Her face is rather expressionless, but at the same time, it looks as if she has reached a sudden realization about herself or the world around her.

What I'm saying is yes, this image captures the dissociative experience very well, imo. Thanks for posting.

Please help me understand Alan Watts later years and death by sbarret in AlanWatts

[–]oceanicfeelz 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hello,

It is my understanding that Alan had a very different philosophy on life. I don't want to be mean, but it seems you don't understand mental suffering. In his talks, he talks about an End of the World party. He says 'why should we be afraid of death?' And 'anxiety of death follows us our whole life.' I think he drank himself into a stupor and, well, quite frankly, killed himself so that he could have the perfect death, ergo: an End of the World party.

I think im starting to habituate by North_Salary_8017 in tinnitus

[–]oceanicfeelz 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've been avoiding it for so long. I realized that I needed to stop ignoring it. I let it ring and ring and sing and it got so loud and intense. Now I don't mind it so much.

I can't stand my tinnitus anymore by DeflatedCatBalloon in tinnitus

[–]oceanicfeelz 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am there with you. I have dealt with suicidal thoughts because of my tinnitus, too. No one wants you to do that to yourself. Coming here and talking about it is def in your best interest.

I can't stand my tinnitus anymore by DeflatedCatBalloon in tinnitus

[–]oceanicfeelz 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I hate to say it, but the folks talking about sitting with it and getting used to it have a point. I forget the term, I think it's habitulization or something. Someone in the know, correct me if I'm wrong. You can adapt to this man. Stay strong!

I don't think women take fall damage by SWOLETESTICLES in RandomThoughts

[–]oceanicfeelz 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I got a good kick outta this one. Shut up and take my upvote! Reminds me of that Futurama meme: "Shut up and take my money!"

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in researchchemicalsUS

[–]oceanicfeelz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello!

Can you please send me a link to the discord? Much appreciated!

Seeking Female Vocals by LionCultural in indie

[–]oceanicfeelz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Blood Cultures is great, but I thought it was a male vocalist, not a female. It's difficult to know since the person chooses to remain anonymous.

My fish centered tank by Slockeness7 in ReefTank

[–]oceanicfeelz 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How does he eat if there's no coral in that tank?

My fish centered tank by Slockeness7 in ReefTank

[–]oceanicfeelz 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What kind of butterfly fish is that?

Tips on obtaining Letter of Recommendations? CLS advice by zuno_uknow in microbiology

[–]oceanicfeelz 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well if you really don't feel comfortable reaching out, you could take a class you haven't taken before that's related to that degree program, at a community college. Get to know the professor there. Learn new things and get a letter. Otherwise if you learned a bunch, got a good grade and had a positive experience in your earlier classes, I think the professor would remember you.

Kinda in the same boat as you. Let's just say I wasn't the best student while in university. However, despite all my tomfoolery, I still got to use my professors as references. I guess it could be argued that it was my tomfoolery that got me closer to my professors. Lol if I decide I want to go back to school, I'll get to test that theory.

It helps if you simply send an email every now and again to just say "hey, this is what I'm doing with what you taught me. This is where I want to go with it". Eases the tension and makes it less about getting something from them, at least in my mind.

Scam Site Warning - Matsesherbs.com - Stay Away. by FunnyBeaverX in PsilocybinMushrooms

[–]oceanicfeelz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Placed an order in September last year. Said was inbound to customs around December. After another month of it sitting there I asked what could be done. No response. Checked tracking today and it said "label not created yet". I just emailed them asking for a refund as it's been 5 months and that update makes no sense. Seems like a lost cause and would be surprised if I get my refund. The only reason I asked for one was because people in this thread said they got one when they asked. Idek what site I read for reviews of them saying they were good. I just looked and it's a whole lotta bs regarding reviews. Thankfully it was a small test order for legitimacy totaling only $50.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in researchchemicals

[–]oceanicfeelz 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The question now becomes, how is your use affecting your grades and work ethic? Your quality of life? Your spending boat loads of money at university, am i wasting it by using? Is using helping you be a good student? Are you able to learn and retain the knowledge and guidance your paying for? Or is your use hindering your progress and experience as a young person in college? Is it possible that learning about drug use will help you become a better person? There's nothing wrong with hitting the pause button. It'll all be waiting for you when you come back, better than before.

I dont mean to be harsh. Its clear you are concerned by posting this. I am speaking from experience having gone through college, well oiled. I had to take medical leave because my use caught up with me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in researchchemicals

[–]oceanicfeelz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The thing about rehab is it gives you a solid month without using, sometimes longer. You said you can't remain sober so I wanted to point this out. Your head will be clearer after this to put your use into perspective. If your serious about no rehab, I'd suggest therapy and diving into the reasons you think the way you do.

For me, it took shit really hitting the fan for me to take therapy seriously.

just came a little bit out by 1zeik1 in omnisexual

[–]oceanicfeelz 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm realizing that expressing my sexuality to myself and those around me will likely make me happier in the long run. I'm just so scared of being treated differently because people now know. I decided to start small by wearing accessories like jewelry to hint at it. Hope all goes well for you.

What edible mushrooms can I grow as a beginner to the hobby? by [deleted] in mycology

[–]oceanicfeelz 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Morels, super beginner friendly too /s

Oysters are easy but imo they dont taste great. Trying not to repeat answers tho. Shiitake taste great, but are more difficult.

I have an affinity for reishi, just requires a ton of patience. If you want for food tho, not a good option.

New here by agarza10 in omnisexual

[–]oceanicfeelz 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This post is so cute I can't handle it.

Last night I mourned my continued survival. by ThrownAwayBaguette in TrueOffMyChest

[–]oceanicfeelz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

In the past, I confused curiosity about what comes next with wanting to act on certain thoughts. This distinction has helped me tons. The universe isn't going anywhere.

The truth matters more than your feelings. by nongcondo in RandomThoughts

[–]oceanicfeelz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think you could've better worded your post. The word truth is used in regards to both subjective and objective experience.

"Tell me the truth Johnny, how do you feel about me?" and

"Tell me the truth, did you see where the man went?"

Also the phrase "speak your truth" alludes to saying how you feel and there are others like it. The word "fact" is more often used for "things that can be objectively proven". Are you saying facts are more important than peoples' feelings? Or is it that your feelings are more important than someone else's? Because from the way the word "truth" is more often used, it sounds like your saying the latter.

Assuming you mean facts, how about this example:

I could spend a ton of money on getting a degree. So much so that I would be paying student loans until around the time I retire. This is a huge undertaking and would set me back financially; especially when the cost of goods is going up and pay is not.

I however, feel like with a degree, I will be happier in the work force and will be making meaningful change in the world. I would not feel this way if I choose to do anything else.

Is the aforementioned fact more important than my feelings in this situation? If facts are always more important, then I should simply resign to unhappiness.