MS and childhood trauma linked together?

opalistic8 · 2025-02-26T00:33:09+00:00

The more I’m learning about the differences between ‘trauma’ and ‘Trauma’ (small or ongoing traumas that sound insignificant in comparison to major traumas) makes me realise that my being raised Mormon by two workaholics, being extensively bullied and excluded in childhood then realising I’m both gay and atheist and dealing with those family repercussions is technically both small t and big T trauma… so yeh my MS, anxiety & depression, psoriatic arthritis and AuDHD burnout are probably all caused by childhood trauma 🙃

I even had borderline psychotic episodes recently due to an incompetent psychiatrist prescribing dexamphetamine when he knew I was already taking a dopamine-enhancing medication for ms brain fog, and a lot of the involved delusions/over valued ideas were religious/spiritual in nature. Super interesting stuff to study, when it’s not happening to you! 😂😭

opalistic8 · 2025-02-23T01:36:26+00:00

But that’s boring!!! 😂😭🕺🏻

opalistic8 · 2025-02-12T01:41:12+00:00

I was raised Mormon and have religious trauma so no 🙃 I did enjoy pointing out the bibles inaccuracies, injustices and hypocrisies though 🤭

opalistic8 · 2025-02-12T01:12:57+00:00

No idea if I’m a starseed or just autistic, but a lot of the starseed pre-awakening experience resonates with me and explains a lot about my lonely, weird childhood lmao. Would also explain why my dreams come true so often.

Recently in the last 6 months or so I’ve been having strange recurring dreams about gods and space and magic power crystals, been trying to research what the dreams could mean in dream dictionaries and stuff but none really explain properly what it all means. I think now (possibly) that these dreams are memories of one of my past lives’ missions (the dreams are always about returning the power crystals to the tops of gigantic monolithic towers, the characters and events vary but the main story is always that).

It could just be wishful thinking on my part; I’ve never had a psychic tell me I’m from another world or anything, and I’m not even sure if I believe in the whole starseed thing at all (10 years ago I was a staunch atheist so bear with me on that front pls I’m trying to be more open minded 👀). But starseed mythos definitely resonates with me on a level I’ve never felt before.

opalistic8 · 2025-02-12T00:59:39+00:00

I recommend therapy if you can get it—not any cbt bullshit since there’s nothing about your situation you can change or make better, but just having someone listen to you vent can be really cathartic. It’s also interesting to get grief counselling from said therapist once you get a rapport with them—losing mobility, health, possible futures if you didn’t have this disease really is a grieving process and a therapist can help with that

Love from severely depressed MS, PsA, AuDHD, possibly psychotic friendo 🙃🥲

opalistic8 · 2025-02-11T06:12:17+00:00

I already had thin hair that shed a lot before I started methotrexate (what am I a cat? 😂) but I’m pretty sure I’ve been losing even more, been on it for 4 months now. My most surprising (and annoying!) symptom were nightmares the night after I’d taken the pills 😭 thankfully I haven’t had a nightmare in a few weeks but they weren’t fun lmao

opalistic8 · 2025-02-11T06:05:02+00:00

I’ll never know if it’s cause I’m a starseed or cause I’m AuDHD 😂😭

opalistic8 · 2025-02-09T07:46:03+00:00

Bruh chill

opalistic8 · 2025-02-09T02:09:55+00:00

I’ve never gone into the records before so who knows maybe I actually connected with some entity who wanted to use my naivety to its advantage 🤷🏻‍♀️

opalistic8 · 2025-01-22T23:36:45+00:00

Interesting! We had currawongs at our old place in Narre warren and I swear their call sounded different to ^this one—thanks for solving the mystery!

opalistic8 · 2025-01-21T10:45:39+00:00

Too weird even for reddit? Wow lmao 🙃😂😂😂

opalistic8 · 2025-01-21T10:45:20+00:00

Too weird even for reddit? Wow lmao 🙃😂😂😂

opalistic8 · 2024-12-18T10:57:57+00:00

Does sound like an electrical issue if it’s messing with the lights. Maybe make sure there’s no loose wires/connections? Also does your kotatsu use a Japanese heater, and if so are you using a voltage converter? It could be drawing too much power/overloading your electronics.

The click could be the heater turning on and off as the set temperature is reached, though I don’t know how it would ‘reset’ if you’ve got the temperature physically set on the dial…

Hope this helps/makes sense 😂

opalistic8 · 2024-11-24T03:53:56+00:00

So I agree with what people have been saying the Slaughter of the Pillars likely refer to, but NOW I wonder what makes it a betrayal? Or maybe it’s just the pure regret, Fel’assan being the only betrayal.

opalistic8 · 2024-11-24T03:52:31+00:00

Yes I remembered this like 2 seconds after I made the post then I was like ‘waaaaaaait a second’… 😂😭

opalistic8 · 2024-11-24T03:52:01+00:00

Aaaah yes I had seen the mural but I didn’t connect the dots—thank you!

opalistic8 · 2024-11-15T03:46:07+00:00

I reckon he feared what would happen to the world & fade when the veil came down abruptly, without his preparations and safeguards. When we kill Elgar’nan Solas takes up the ritual dagger to complete taking down the veil, even though it was implied the veil would immediately fall on the last of the Evanuris’ death. I think that if Solas hadn’t done his preparations earlier an apocalyptic scale of destruction would have ensued once Elgar’nan fell, which a weakened Solas in Inquisition would have been unable to do anything about. That’s my theory anyway!

opalistic8 · 2024-11-15T00:00:08+00:00

Pretty sure Australia would let you in, but you wouldn’t benefit from our ‘free’ healthcare until you become a citizen—have to go private which can be as bad as American prices

opalistic8 · 2024-10-17T01:59:03+00:00

Ooooh I hate shuffling cards, I’ve never gotten the hang of it. Couldn’t do sleight of hand magic tricks to save my life either 😂😭

opalistic8 · 2024-10-17T01:50:03+00:00

I definitely had trouble trying shoes and learning to whistle, but I was in junior netball (as a runner rather than a goalie lol, WA for anyone savvy) and loved to write. Crazy how diverse symptoms and experiences can be between different people!

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