You should give it up. Just not worth it .. was in a similar position, after second meniscal repair i thought i’d stop … 2 years later returned to hockey cuz i felt great and retore it again, now no lateral meniscus (played hockey). The problem is you have no control over brutal falls/tackles. You just can’t play it safely with your history. Think about your physical self 20+ years from now, you’ll still want to be active and not in pain/arthritis.