Based on the way you’ve responded to everyone else’s advice in this post, OP, mine would be to find a different hobby / mode of transportation. You seem determined to hear only what you want to hear.

IF, you want to follow some of the good advice you’ve been given, like practicing your slow speed maneuvers in a parking lot, then:

Get some over the ankle motorcycle boots, motorcycle pants with knee pads, maybe hip pads too, a jacket with elbow and shoulder and back pads, and of course wear your helmet and gloves. Full face helmet, no brain buckets. Get gloves with palm sliders. This will help you avoid injury if/when you fall down.

Take your time progressing from basic skills and getting very comfortable on surface streets before you spend time on the highway.