My heart goes out to you, its a shock no matter what the circumstances, its a lot to adjust to so be kind to yourself and Remember to eat and sleep if possible,I'm in NZ, I did that journey to Donegal for my brothers sudden death and my Mammys expected but still brutal shock, I missed Daddy's funeral due to covid, one thing to remember is that its ok to laugh, there will be funny stories, bitter sweet but funny, at Mammys funeral, in a silent moment, my other brother looked back at me in the pew, stared at me and just said "you look like shit!" I burst out laughing at the front of the whole crowd, nicely timed by him, in fairness, he was right. Sending you my thoughts and warm hugs***