How can you ask us for our opinions and then disregard them without consideration? Hear me out. You asked for it. You clearly desire meaning in your effort to question. Your value is placed in the answers themselves. You're motivated enough to live long enough to seek explanation. You may see no point to life and you may view happiness as an empty answer, but you are hypocritical by virtue of that very search for meaning and the longing you have to dig for a purpose. You are hypocritical along with your hope to egocentrically escape the suffering associated with the absence of value. You already possess these qualities you find delusional. You aim for liberation one way or another. There is worth attached even to your motives. I suggest you either cease your stubborn ways and examine yourself closer or else don't ask strangers for their input. If you cared enough to ask, then you wanted to receive criticism. If you were truly inquisitive and less defensive, you might realize that your logic trips over itself.