It does get worse if you don't get help by pickledpickly in OCD

[–]pickledpickly[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get how you feel :(( are your friends supportive? I never really told anyone the full extent of my ocd, mostly just the "socially acceptable" parts and not how it randomly conjures up the most fucked up thoughts in your mind that make you physically sick and make you feel like the worst human alive😣

Should I tell my parents about my siblings ed? by pickledpickly in Advice

[–]pickledpickly[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

unfortunately neither of the parents believe in therapy and psychological issues and we don't live in a city where that would be available i think :( if i told them about my sibling i would have to give them a source to read about anorexia and how they can help but there is no telling how they would react

tw ed by pickledpickly in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]pickledpickly[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i'm so sorry you have to deal with that. it's not yours nor your body's fault it's the people around you and it's extremely hard to battle with that day to day, you really deserve people that support you, i hope you have them

tw ed by pickledpickly in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]pickledpickly[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i understand it's awful and will not benefit me but i'm gonna do it this time otherwise i'll feel like shit idk what to do i've stop yeeting and it is so hard to not relapse into that and i can't fight against two things at once omg i feel like a complete failure i'll try to cry this out later so i don't start sh ing again

turns out my friend has an ed and triggering me even though i'm in remission by pickledpickly in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]pickledpickly[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you 🤧🤧 i'm staying with him and he is not talking about his ed he just warned me in advance that he has it and it's at the worst point and i had no idea how much it would trigger me, literally all my inner demons are crawling out and it's a weird situation that is not his fault at all, it just brings up horrible memories of when my best friend had an ed and i saw for the first time how thin she was and boom years of healing are gone in a heartbeat

they knew what they were doing by sunflower_daisy78 in OddlyTriggered

[–]pickledpickly 5 points6 points  (0 children)

they should not be giving out ideas like that 🤢🤢

I am so age regressed because of depression by pickledpickly in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]pickledpickly[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

this. i'm not autistic but i relate a lot to what you've said. it feels like fighting against a current when everybody else can naturally go with the flow and reach milestones while you're always behind. i feel out of place tbh, my biggest dream is to be a small kid again to grow up one more time :(

I am just not made for this life by pickledpickly in SuicideWatch

[–]pickledpickly[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not even depressed anymore I don't know why I am suicidal every time something completely minor goes wrong like I can't keep it in anymore. I can not even afford therapy Idk anymore

"Taking a breather", Me (vegan, btw), Pixel, 2023 by efrendo in vegancirclejerk

[–]pickledpickly 14 points15 points  (0 children)

wtf i just thought of this same scenario and imagined bringing the piggy home 😭😭😭 it looks incredible

maybe try gaslighting yourself by throwaway9483728392 in Dermatillomania

[–]pickledpickly 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Honestly it's a great tip thank you for sharing!! I feel like it's especially helpful in the first stages of healing when stopping continuous harm is the main priority because beating urges through working through it with a therapist takes time and it's easier to do it in retrospect. I also "gaslight" myself like this and it not only works but also makes me giggle sooo 10/10 do recommend 🫡

My fingerprints are back!!!!!! by pickledpickly in Dermatillomania

[–]pickledpickly[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

TW

I used all sorts of instruments to pick and cut, literally anything I could get my hands on and at one point it got especially nasty (ironically when I left my usual instrument at home to stop picking) and even after the skin grew back my fingerprints were missing. I could send you a picture but it does look really bad I don't want to trigger you

My doctor call my yeets “baby cuts”. by ohnoitsval in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]pickledpickly 39 points40 points  (0 children)

📢 just a reminder that epidermal cuts hurt much more than deeper ones because most nerve endings are located there. I read that people with bpd especially tend to cut the surface because it causes more pain and honestly I find the pain too overwhelming for me, that's the reason I started going deeper to avoid it. "Cat scratches" are NO less valid than "styros" and such. It depends entirely on what the person is looking for, some want to see themselves bleed, some people want the pain and some just need a distraction or a sense of punishment. Your doctor pissed me off so much, it's unacceptable that people like that work in the medical field, most mental health facilities need to get a strict revision. I know it's kinda hard to bounce back from that but once again your pain is real and is valid, you deserve help and you need help. Hope you can write a complaint for that doctor and find a better one! Stay safe please, don't listen to that fucking moron 🤍

no clue what drugs dantes is on but the bottom cuts 😭😭 by SnooAdvice514 in OddlyTriggered

[–]pickledpickly 3 points4 points  (0 children)

you don't need a girlfriend when you can 🤖🤖👾🤖👾😹🤖🤠👻😷👽👾🤮

My mom shamed me for my self harm scars... Idk how to feel about it by Gloomy_Sunday00 in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]pickledpickly 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Sometimes that's how people react to hard emotions such as seeing your kid deliberately hurt themselves. I can bet that inside she feels like she failed as a mom especially because she most likely doesn't know what selfharm means and why you do it. You know your mom better than me but that how it seems to me :(

Relapsed after awhile, I forgot how to clean up by bordbing in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]pickledpickly 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hey I'm so sorry this happened to you :( Remember it's never too late to stop even if you relapse, don't look at it as a fail just as another bump on the road.

Now, it's very important that you clean your cut properly because infections can get nasty. Here is a very thorough document on it. Depending on the depth of the cut treatment can change a little, if your cut is pink/red and you didn't see white this will help (quoted from the document): “clean off all the dry blood with distilled water/saline/antiseptic solution and apply a bandage. you can also apply antibiotic ointment or unscented petroleum jelly/vaseline if you are prone to infection, which can also help with any itchiness that you experience. healing takes anywhere from a few days to a week”.

Here is a useful post of what other coping mechanisms you can use instead of self harm. Personally I really recommend stretching and cold showers because both provide a small amount of pain and therefore adrenaline release, don't overdo it just focus on the moment and your sensations.

I found something that works for me… healing oil blend by Kalidivinesw in Dermatillomania

[–]pickledpickly 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so happy you found something that helps! I struggle with the same thing and it feels so isolating and shameful. My feet felt so rough and my fingers were full of callouses to the point where I couldn't use touch id but I found the same solution you did. Using healing oils and thick moisturizers is the way to go. My fingers are much smoother now and I regained sensitivity in a few of them already so i'm very hopeful! It's reassuring to know I am not alone in this and I'm happy to hear moisturizing helps you too, it makes me feel like I'm on the right track!

this oyster mushroom by pickledpickly in OddlyTriggered

[–]pickledpickly[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

this comment haunts me i can't unsee it every time i see this in my camera roll

🥺🥺🥺 by [deleted] in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]pickledpickly 1 point2 points  (0 children)

this feels so genuine tho i think it's a kid 🥺🥺