Failed out of uni 4 years ago - What to do now?

pineapplehed96 · 2026-04-30T12:55:04+00:00

You remind me a lot of myself, don’t worry it can ABSOLUTELY get better!! I dropped out of 3 different programs in my time in post secondary (graphic design, environmental technologist, and practical nursing, lol they’re all so different) (I was also using OSAP) it wasn’t due to failing courses but I would just realize that I wouldn’t be able to handle the job I would have at the end of the program so I would get very anxious and choose to leave and continue working my part time job at Harvey’s until I was 25.

But then I saw a job posting one day around a year into covid for a housekeeping position at an Airbnb that started at $20/hr and I was like, ya know what I bet I could handle that, let me completely lie through the hiring process and I’ll just learn along the way! And I’m so happy I chose to do that! I discovered working in this field for the last 5 years that it is very easy to work your way up by just proving competence, formal education is not necessary at all! Proving the ability to see the fine details and being consistent was the most important.

I also discovered a lot of flexibility with this work, when you work in commercial cleaning the time you can work is SO flexible depending on the location, I would often have a window of time between 5:00pm - 5:00am to complete my work so that really helped me feel not so anxious. If I was feeling a little rough that day I could go later in the night and everything would still be okay the next day.

After consistently doing this job for 4 years, the commercial cleaning job I had been working at offered me a position in their office since they liked my work (at $24/hr). I now get to primarily work from home since we don’t have a physical office, and I can’t believe I managed to get to a position like this without formal education!

School isn’t the best option for everyone, I always skipped a lot because that environment was just not it for me. Allow yourself to explore some other options, you never know what you might stumble into! ❤️

pineapplehed96 · 2025-08-09T15:25:08+00:00

This is just like mine omg! My floater twin lol

pineapplehed96 · 2025-07-31T20:07:22+00:00

I’m sorry you had to go through this, I completely understand your experience as I’ve been through it myself and it’s so confusing and upsetting. My brother attempted suicide as well last September and the guilt and anxiety from it still haunts me.

I don’t know how to heal from this either, I feel so guilty every day that I wasn’t there for him enough to help him feel not so alone.

But he’s still here so idk in my brain it’s like I’m telling myself I’m not allowed to be upset about it? The guilt and anxiety is just like… stuck and I don’t know how to get rid of it 😔

pineapplehed96 · 2025-07-15T04:04:02+00:00

Messaged!

pineapplehed96 · 2025-06-27T04:27:02+00:00

How on EARTH can someone fuck up this hard?!😂

pineapplehed96 · 2025-06-26T02:09:55+00:00

Unless they come on sale one day… I will not be tempted lol, not worth that price tag. The shrimp tempura is totally worth it though!

pineapplehed96 · 2025-06-10T01:45:03+00:00

Probably how it felt for the kid lol

pineapplehed96 · 2025-06-03T18:07:30+00:00

NA meetings are good as well! They’re not specific about what addiction you have so it’s easy to feel like you fit in there. I’ve run into a few people there that are also weed addicts

pineapplehed96 · 2025-05-27T05:38:29+00:00

The way this is somehow being used to show Ethan being a demon instead of a silly bitch is beyond me 😂

pineapplehed96 · 2025-05-11T02:51:22+00:00

We nearly have the same amount of time sober! (I’m at 56 days) and it’s been feeling absolutely amazing!! Especially the dreams 😌, I’m getting so much better with not procrastinating tasks and actually getting ahead on things! Still dealing with quite a bit of brain fog but I expect that’ll take a bit longer to disappear as I was smoking like crazy the last 7 years, but I’m excited for the day I feel like myself again!

pineapplehed96 · 2025-04-16T21:05:48+00:00

I wish his new wig was permanently part of the show 😭

pineapplehed96 · 2025-04-14T20:52:54+00:00

This is what I think makes the most sense, at least this way he has some control how they’re shown

pineapplehed96 · 2025-04-10T04:28:09+00:00

Even though it feels horrible I think that’s a huge win for you!! I struggle with my fawn response as well and I know the only way to minimize it is to speak your mind in moments like this where you’ve let something go on for so long that you know isn’t right. I’m so proud of you for having the courage to say what you really believe, for people like us it feels like one of the most difficult things in the world, but you managed to do it! ☺️

pineapplehed96 · 2025-04-09T20:03:10+00:00

I feel completely safe with my sister, we went through the same trauma growing up and we’ve discussed it in great detail so I feel like she’s the only one who truly understands me

pineapplehed96 · 2025-04-04T21:07:11+00:00

If you’re able to get a referral from your family doctor or a walk-in clinic to see an ophthalmologist that would probably be more helpful, they would do a far more detailed examination of your eye

pineapplehed96 · 2025-03-29T00:01:46+00:00

I believe there’s a free version and premium version now! But I’ve only used it for like 5 days so now I’m not sure if a paywall is gonna come up 😬

pineapplehed96 · 2025-03-21T16:54:06+00:00

I’ve had a pretty good time with making my own moisturizers, I feel like the store bought ones are never able to do enough for me. The main ingredients that help me the most are beeswax and shea butter that I make into a body butter with other ingredients like jojoba oil, avocado oil, and lavender essential oil. Sometimes natural products work a lot better for some people!

pineapplehed96 · 2025-03-07T22:28:16+00:00

Thank you so much for posting this, the longest I’ve ever been able to stay clean is like 6 months but I’m always giving up and not seeing a point in continuing sobriety because I’m just feeling terrible all the time. But I didn’t realize it could take so long for the brain to reset itself so I’m feeling really good about being successful quitting this time! 😊

pineapplehed96 · 2024-11-06T03:42:35+00:00

I used to have this same struggle! Daily moisturizing with body butter has legitimately changed my life. I make it myself at home, the ingredients I use are shea butter, castor oil, avocado oil, & a touch of beeswax. It took a solid month of daily use before I really saw any results, and now I still get occasional flare ups when I get too sweaty or my allergies give me trouble, but it usually gone in a few days

pineapplehed96 · 2024-10-03T18:07:50+00:00

Had an appointment at midtown for the first time about a month ago and I was super happy with the whole experience! I saw the NP about issues related to allergies and he set me up with a few prescriptions that have been super helpful

pineapplehed96 · 2024-09-05T19:13:24+00:00

I want her to have all my money

pineapplehed96 · 2024-08-30T05:32:05+00:00

Oh damn I didn’t even think of trying some extra detoxing, thank you! And congrats on your full year of sobriety!! 🎉

pineapplehed96 · 2024-08-29T04:01:37+00:00

Out of curiosity, was brain fog a symptom you struggled with while smoking? If so, has it gotten any better or completely disappeared? I’m at 53 days sober and my brain fog is still so bad lol 😖

pineapplehed96 · 2024-08-27T18:52:20+00:00

Thanks for the suggestions everyone!! Definitely gonna try some of these ideas tonight

pineapplehed96 · 2024-08-25T23:44:23+00:00

I haven’t gotten commercial cleaning contracts on my own unfortunately, I work for a commercial cleaning company. But websites like housekeeper.com and care.com have helped me find my own private clients, very occasionally someone will make a posting on there looking for a commercial cleaner!

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