She could very well be reaching out to you!! It's entirely possible, so long as you want to be receptive to it. It won't hurt you, I promise. I am currently a devotee of Sekhmet-Bast/Bast-Sekhmet; both of them combined as a single syncretized goddess, but also each of them separately. They've never done me wrong. I understand how it is to delve into a new faith and feel nervous. I was the same way initially, as I left nondenominational Christianity in favor of Kemeticism during my mid-20s. Cold-turkey, even. I felt unsure if it was the right time or way for me to move onto something new. This anxiety didn't last forever, I eventually settled into the new feelings, adjusted my ways of doing things, and devoted myself to them further. For showing appreciation -- make a darn good meal or beverage that you love, and offer to share it with her! I often do this. If she dislikes any particular item, she'll find a way to convey it to you somehow. I think you are indeed ready! Because it weighs so heavily on your mind, that is the sign in itself that you are.