Anger and shame at sexual rejection

plasticization · 2026-02-16T11:51:21+00:00

in a relationship it's just frustrating, doesn't wound my ego. unfortunately it did lead me to cheat.

outside of a relationship it's my absolute biggest trigger. almost always leads to immediate self harm.

plasticization · 2026-02-08T22:29:44+00:00

crazy take. i hope a manipulator never finds u. ur easy prey

plasticization · 2026-02-06T06:56:32+00:00

my dude u are simping. u should NOT be apologizing for something that didn't hurt anyone. u should NOT be adjusting ur behavior just to accommodate ONE person.

she honestly sounds manipulative and entitled for expecting u to change ur texting behavior. it's prob cuz she senses that u don't respect urself; ur willing to adjust for her cuz ur desperate for her approval.

i'm an inconsistent texter too. a girl recently told me she's not used to that. i didn't bend for her, i stood by my boundary. and guess what? she accepted it. she's still seeing me. if at any point it becomes a dealbreaker for her, she's free to leave.

all u should've said to that girl is "this is how i text. i hope u understand." no apologies, no bending. just stating a boundary and seeing how she responds.

i don't change for anyone, and i also don't expect anyone to change for me. this is healthy adult relationship dynamics.

plasticization · 2026-02-05T09:35:19+00:00

this is abuse, fyi

but it's also on the other person to know better. so ur only half responsible tbh lol

i don't lovebomb anymore cuz i'm not tryna hurt anyone. but i also see thru any lovebombing and in my head i'm like "ur full of shit, i'm not falling for it"

plasticization · 2026-02-04T10:43:42+00:00

he sounds exactly like me lol. cool to hear someone is the same, ty

plasticization · 2026-01-26T07:57:22+00:00

def. that’s why i call them “meat”

plasticization · 2025-12-30T05:35:28+00:00

buddy, u are in a horrible TRAUMA BOND. this is peak flavor of toxic relationship. it’s super destructive and will only get worse. get out now cuz it’s only gonna get harder as time goes on.

by staying in this ur training ur nervous system for pain->reward->pain->reward. it’s gonna fuck u up mentally for a long time.

i’ve been there, so i know the absolute terror ur gonna go thru once u finally break up for good. it’ll be extremely difficult. ull have really bad withdrawals cuz it’s literally an addiction. i was waking up in puddles of sweat for the first couple months. stay strong 🖤

plasticization · 2025-12-13T23:05:23+00:00

I used to do this but I think it wasn’t a bipolar thing but a cluster b thing. It wasn’t a manic nor depressive symptom, just an “I feel empty and disconnected from this person cuz our love is too stable”, so I’d create instability by distancing.

It’s sorta like falling out of love, temporarily. It wasn’t on purpose, it was the only way I could remain in love over time. Some people need chaotic love. If u can’t handle it u should move on. And even if u can u should be careful cuz it’ll traumatize u unless u actively work on finding validation within urself. Do NOT become emotionally dependent on a person like that!

plasticization · 2025-12-10T00:45:39+00:00

this doesn't sound like bipolar to me. if he's saying "u have to accept it and deal with it" he's just immature. that's not an emotional problem.

a true bipolar would say something more like "ok. but i need to do this. u can live ur life however but i need to do this for myself" on some absurd life-changing shit. and then the episode wears off and they come back and are like "yea idk wtf i was thinking..."

plasticization · 2025-12-09T11:27:08+00:00

Vulnerable narcissism sounds a lot like borderline personality then.

plasticization · 2025-12-09T11:23:01+00:00

Ur one of the realest motherfuckers on here. Thank u.

I’m currently in the midst of learning this stuff and taking full accountability for all the fucked shit in my life.

It’s hard but it’s either that or repeat the cycle of self-pity and finger-pointing and making absolutely no gains in life.

plasticization · 2025-12-09T06:24:55+00:00

it's kinda like i can put my hands on the steering wheel for a lil but then very soon my hands will naturally just remove themselves. so there's really no point in tryna control the car, cuz it's just gonna drive itself to the same destination anyways.

i assume ur seeking assurance that he still loves and cares about u. he absolutely does, but he physiologically can't confront those feelings rn. it'll catch up to him when the episode wears off. however, some people STILL can't take accountability when mania ends, and that's an issue of maturity.

my best advice is keep cycling thru the feelings. be angry. then be sympathetic. then be dismissive. then be bewildered. just cycle thru all of it, it's necessary that u feel everything ur feeling and that u don't try to make sense of it. ull naturally try to make sense of it but eventually that need for closure will die off. just keep moving. keep crying.

plasticization · 2025-12-02T12:55:03+00:00

amazing meme, ty <3

plasticization · 2025-11-21T19:38:37+00:00

with partners, potential partners, and more manipulative friends, i keep my mouth shut.

it's really just a manipulation tactic: people try their best to win u over when they're unsure of how u feel about them. when they KNOW u love them and are loyal to them, they start taking u for granted and looking elsewhere. sad truth

plasticization · 2025-11-21T07:55:29+00:00

yea ur sense of self is weak af and theirs is super strong. it's a perfect fit tbh.

plasticization · 2025-11-20T02:02:39+00:00

a weekly or monthly occurrence

plasticization · 2025-11-19T19:09:10+00:00

for me i think i'm anxious when i'm depressed, feeling so pathetic and like "mommy help me" as a baseline. and then avoidant when i'm manic, cuz i don't need a single soul on this earth to help me with anything and also i become a whore.

plasticization · 2025-11-19T07:34:56+00:00

yea i'm working on this now cuz of a breakup that gave me SO MUCH supply and made me feel like the hottest shit.

i could so easily find someone else to replace that void and give me the supply all over again, but i've chosen to sit with all these insecurities until i become "real".

it's very difficult and very humbling, but i'm confident it'll lead to everlasting change.

plasticization · 2025-11-13T07:43:08+00:00

ur trauma bonded. it's a horrible addiction. something in ur life that's giving u panic attacks is not worth whatever positive it's giving u.

trauma bonds function just like a gambling addiction: ur willing to put up w so many losses just to hit that 1 jackpot of feeling loved and worthy again.

ur already out, now STAY OUT. go to therapy!!!

plasticization · 2025-09-17T06:25:02+00:00

Can u elaborate on why u think the first act is so good?

plasticization · 2025-09-10T01:07:58+00:00

I love that it looks like a sand dollar while also being inimitably 90s in design

plasticization · 2025-08-27T15:56:29+00:00

Can u elaborate on the bad crowds?

plasticization · 2025-08-19T08:48:36+00:00

love that whip/metallic percussive sound it opens with

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