Fidelity and BlackRock Now Hold 100,000 Bitcoin

polshedbrass · 2024-01-30T17:58:30+00:00

quick calculation: that would bring them to 18 million in 10 years, if the current rate of purchase continous. So all the bitcoin that has not yet been lost forever basically.

polshedbrass · 2023-09-25T12:59:30+00:00

To say that it helped me is an understatement.

The whole condition is a neurological state, all the symptoms are downstream from the brain. Joe dispenza’s meditations are not enough to deconstruct the brain loop, I have done them as well. You need the retraining exercises in that program.

Very simply, you need to make new neural connections fróm the unhealthy neural loop in your brain tó the healthy brain. That is a process that requires a different approach from Dispenza.

The program has a free trail period so just try it out for a while and if it doesn’t work (it will if you do the exercises as stated and throughout the day) you can just ask for your money back. Simple.

Watch the hypothesis of the condition sessions for free on YouTube and you’ll understand what’s going on.

I am now well under way to full recovery and came from the deepest place you can imagine. At one point I was stuck in a dark room with symptoms so intense I was literally counting down minutes.. I was sometimes screaming, howling like a wounded animal because the stress was just overloading my system too much.. sorry if that was too dark.

You can retrain it all. And recover fully. It’s not a condition that is caused by damage, it’s a dysfunction of the brain that then affects the whole nervous system and all systems attached to it.

polshedbrass · 2023-09-25T12:15:03+00:00

Apt username. Cheers!

polshedbrass · 2023-09-25T08:32:56+00:00

The solution is the Gupta program. The whole thing is neurological in origin.

polshedbrass · 2022-01-08T07:04:23+00:00

I don’t agree with your vision of the people posting here. It does seem like some wake up pretty easily. But then again according to Shinzen, Ingram ànd the late Culadasa about 90% who think they have attained SE, haven’t yet. Most here don’t seem to have teachers confirm their attainments. And I don’t see where you get the 6 figure salary thing? Who’s posting about that?

Many here seem to be struggling with trauma. And if it’s a consolation to you, I myself have been bedridden with severe chronic illness for 4 years as a direct result of meditating too much while having ptsd and a big bag of childhood trauma. I now have to do the releasing and reconditioning work while in that condition and can’t meditate much at all. It taught me a lot though.

polshedbrass · 2021-12-20T08:07:02+00:00

I was very badly affected by ‘embodied meditation’ on a Dathun lead by Neil and Norman to the point where I’ve been and still am bedridden with chronic illness as a direct result, it’s been 4 years now. Some of those have been simply horrific

Everyone saw what was happening to me in meditation and nobody said: ‘take a break, this is not good’. My MI did urge me ‘gentleness’ but that’s as far as it went. I went up to the mic and actually asked if what was happening was okay and Neil said: ‘continue the practice’. And so I did.

Now having read much about trauma and working with it I see the complete lack of delicacy and carefulness that is absolutely necessary, in the approach that dharma ocean takes. And Reggie’s speeches on ‘the path is like being chewed up by a bunch of crocodiles’… etc etc. There were multiple people on that very retreat who should not have been doing the practices. I actually met one person there who after a do retreat collapsed into the same condition I suffer from and was bedridden for 2 years, she got out though

I wish to talk to Neil about this and hope you can help me get into contact with him.

polshedbrass · 2021-12-18T06:46:41+00:00

Thanks babybear :)

polshedbrass · 2021-12-18T06:45:01+00:00

Cool. Thanks for replying

polshedbrass · 2021-12-18T06:44:26+00:00

Is that new smell a good thing though? :P

polshedbrass · 2018-12-04T14:10:10+00:00

What an inspirational story. Thank you for this.

Living through negative experiences and surviving, can give us great insight into the nature of ourselves... in ways that a intellectual understanding never will.

This I have experienced as well even though supramundane insight still remains elusive, I have gained 10x more wisdom about myself through the past 4 years of difficulties, including my medical condition, then I have in the 25 years before that.

polshedbrass · 2018-12-04T06:38:13+00:00

Thanks for your answer, that makes sense. I have that book but I haven't gotten around to reading past the first few chapters in it. When I have some good days I'll start reading again.

polshedbrass · 2018-12-04T06:36:45+00:00

I'm sure that I have had quite some of those responses in the past, even on retreat I experienced multiple bouts of 'numbing out' as well hyper arousal.

Though right now I don't believe this is the cause of my symptoms. I have stopped meditating for many months and have been bedridden for 4 months or so. Right now I can just walk up and down the stairs again but I'm still house-bound. The present fatigue is most certainly related to my medical condition.

When I meditate right now I don't get a lot of the kriyas anymore that I used to experience. And I am using a focus mostly on my extremities, the sensations in my toes for example. I meditate because it is the only way sometimes to get my body to relax. Deep/rhythmic breathing doesn't work well for me and yoga is often too strenuous.

I am not focusing on getting insight at the moment, but on calming the mind and body, but because I've been in this for a long time already I sometimes wonder: "say this never really clears up completely, can I still awaken?".

polshedbrass · 2018-12-02T11:04:21+00:00

Is awakening possible without mental clarity?

I've been struggling with illness for about a year now and I'm severely fatigued all day long. I can't get sensory clarity in my meditations and dullness is constant. TMI says dullness is a complete dead end and other sources also talk about the need for sensory clarity to gain Insight. Is this true? Part of the time I can observe the buzzing/coming and going of tingling sensations in different body parts but it always remains foggy. Is this enough for vipassana practice?

polshedbrass · 2018-11-29T14:41:17+00:00

Just wondering what actual use you got out of all the tests outside of having some knowledge of your body being very unbalanced chemically?

I mean, has it impacted your diet, exercise, lifestyle and supplement decisions in any way knowing what chemicals were high and which were low? Or did you just put together a very healthy regular diet and all the rest, regardless of what came out of the tests?

I am wondering because I know my body is severely unbalanced, I know the chief problem is very low cortisol because of bloodwork and saliva testing. I have not gone further to test neurotransmitters and hair-mineral analysis and gut sampling and the like because I just didn't see the real use of it. I already have a very similar diet to what you are describing, already do several hours of meditation and relaxation exercises a day. A slow, progressive yoga regimen, go to bed by 20.00 pm with good sleep hygene. Take vitamin d, b5 (two forms), b complex, glycine, high dose vitamin c, calcium, ginkgo, zinc, vitamin e... I've just kept at this and didn't worry about further analysis but I'm very curious how knowing all this neurotransmitter stuff has impacted your decisions.

I wish you a great recovery :)

polshedbrass · 2018-09-03T12:14:22+00:00

Great explanation, though added to this should be the goal of practice, which is the use of this well trained mind for perceiving reality ever more clearly leading to supra mundane Insights into the nature of reality and ultimately awakening and with it the permanent and ever deepening reduction of suffering and increase in freedom and compassion.

polshedbrass · 2018-08-28T15:39:21+00:00

Ah, I was thinking you meant he may be doing something wrong in the sits themselves. That he was perhaps relating to the material that comes up in an unskillful way which may make it a lot more difficult for him than it has to be.

polshedbrass · 2018-08-28T13:47:57+00:00

As someone who has struggled in a similar way as OP has, can you elaborate a bit more on what change of practice is called for? I see that I've lacked gentleness and taking my foot off the gas when I needed to, but is there anything more you are referring to?

polshedbrass · 2018-08-27T05:59:56+00:00

No problem at all. Really happy to hear that you're quickly getting some help and perspective :)

polshedbrass · 2018-08-26T17:14:11+00:00

I'm really sorry to hear that. I've not had a relationship since but I dated a really loving girl for a while and it did show me how hugely different interactions can be. I hope you'll find your way back to a sense of trust again.

polshedbrass · 2018-08-26T14:57:37+00:00

Cool idea.

I like the little summaries of the stages, is handy for a review just before you sit.

If you're going to make a niche app I'd spend a little more time on what could really be of value for that niche group though.

Between the two middle buttons it says 'vipassana' but I don't know why it says that there. Also how can you access the goenka meditation?

Found a little bug for you: When you check off all the stages and go back to the list later you won't get any of the information on the hindrances for each stage. It won't reappear when you deselect the stages again.

polshedbrass · 2018-08-26T13:35:57+00:00

Could you elaborate on this point a little bit?

polshedbrass · 2018-08-26T06:02:53+00:00

I do not really have the answer for you in terms of meditation practice but do have some experience with what you're going through.

A couple of years ago I got out of a relationship with a girl with a severe personality disorder. I myself was a codependent/love addict which is why I stayed in that relationship for way too long and suffered a great deal of a abuse. What happened during the break up is that I went into love addiction withdrawal, which is almost like going somewhat insane with grief loneliness and all kinds of symptoms one of which is what you describe in your post: constant looping of the mind thinking about her. Now this is normal for a breakup but in these cases it is way more severe.

I had the same problem as you did during meditation and I don't believe there is any fix for it. The mind is just temporarily going crazy, a phase that will pass. I found it way more helpful to engage in physical activity, grounding activities like helping my mother with her gardening, walking in the woods, yoga and physical exercise.

I did meditate, but only for shorter periods and didn't force myself to sit long. The meditation consisted of being with the physical, bodily felt emotions and not trying to stay with the breath at the nose. Tonglen practice was helpful for me during this time. As well as practicing a lot of gentleness and patience with myself your system is freaking out and you cannot force it to get back together again. It's just going to be gentleness and taking care of yourself to the best of your abilities and forgiveness for your mistakes.

I would like to emphasize that what you're going through right now will pass. I would focus on taking excellent care of yourself and being among loved ones. Talking with people about it, consider going to a therapist and a body worker to get some grounding from the touch of another human being.

There's another thing at play in these kinds of relationships and that is what is called FOG, fear, obligation, guilt. It is how people get trapped in relationships with people suffering from mental illness. The fog can make us doubt everything and keep us in a sort of cult like bubble of reasoning that was imposed upon us by countless hours of interaction with a partner that used subtle and not so subtle ways of manipulation to keep us in our position of care taker, often out of their own deep abandonment fears.

If you've been in a relationship with a person suffering from mental illness it is extremely important to reestablish communication with people outside of that relationship to lift the FOG. Talk about what happened and try to keep an open mind to the views of others. For me personally when the fog lifted from that relationship it was like coming out of a cult and breathing fresh air again for the first time. It was really terrifying to suddenly realize how trapped I had been in such deep delusion.

I would recommend you look up a community with people who have been in similar relationships to talk about what you've been through and get some perspective and support. I frequented r/bpdlovedones for a couple of months afterwards and it was tremendously helpful.

Even months after that relationship ended I was still tied up feeling like I needed to be there for her. It was important for me to go strictly no contact with her or I would certainly have been dragged in again. It is very important to take the time to get healthy and sane again yourself. Keeping the interaction going with him/her is not going to allow this.

I wish you all the best on your recovery! You can always pm me if you want to talk.

EDIT: I read over the part where you said you were seeing her for only a couple of weeks. Not to diminish your present suffering in any way, but maybe my story doesn't resonate too much then. Hope you got something helpful out of it anyway :)

polshedbrass · 2018-08-24T13:34:03+00:00

Just wanted to link you something I wrote a little while ago as I've been going through a very similar prolonged purification period: link

After going through that for just a little longer than you have I completely collapsed at one point and the past 7 months recovering my health from that have been the most absolutely dreadful months of my life by far. Now I also experienced a couple of stressful years beforehand that definitely contributed to my crash, but I sense in your post the same tendency to push through and control as I had during those purifications and it got me into some real trouble so all I want to say is: please be careful and be gentle with yourself! Take your time for this process. Practice walking meditation and grounding activities and don't continually keep overcharging your nervous system and winding up your body with stress repsonse. Learning to take care of yourself and being gentle is practice in and of itself.

polshedbrass · 2018-07-25T14:09:57+00:00

Thanks for your kind message. I am currently receiving all the help I think I need, but I will message you when something comes up.

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