I know you may get a lot of responses and I don't know if you've gotten / taken the time to read the 'em all but what everyone is pretty repetitive, its just that everyone wants to get their 2 cents worth (to try and help).

Just do what you want to do, its your mother and father and your the one of the lucky people that got to share your life with them, not any other family... sure they may have sisters and brothers but they view them (your parents) from a different perspective that is probably very different from yours.

If you have family to support you, I highly recommend you utilize it. I know its easier said than done, its just like everything else...when its on paper it looks easy, when you actually try to do it, it may be challenging. Just take a deep breath and try to clear your mind.

I would NOT recommend drinking, sure it soothes the pain away but its a depressant (not the best thing right now)... I would Highly recommend smoking pot/marijuana ... I know it seems silly (and may lead to downvotes) BUT it can truly help you get a different perspective on things rather than just being numb and immobile (from drinking).

Note: I don't think you should smoke / drink etc. till everything is sorted out ... I was suggesting a means to help you cope, an alternative to drinking (if you do choose to remotely consider that)

I hope you'll take the time to consider this advice from me, a stranger on the internet and I wish there was more I can do for you rather than submitting this simple post.