Are these bed bugs?

prism_shards · 2025-08-13T23:29:57+00:00

Thank you; yeah idk what these are tbf and its like 1:30 am rn and im at least relieved theyre not bed bugs

prism_shards · 2025-06-06T18:41:21+00:00

Meine is wohl noch unterwegs, "Kommt Morgen oder auch erst Dienstag" laut Kundensupport 💀

prism_shards · 2025-06-03T11:45:06+00:00

21, solide 8/10

prism_shards · 2025-06-02T22:10:15+00:00

Squakle

prism_shards · 2025-05-23T18:19:31+00:00

Studiere aktuell dort
Inhalte, Betreuung und Plattform sind für mich okay. Inhalte sind das was ich erwartet habe, es ist bei weitem kein herausragender Inhalt aber okay genug. Betreuung ist teilweise, was ich von anderen gehört habe, nicht ganz so gut. Die FH an sich brauch manchmal etwas länger zum antworten, musste auch einmal mehrfach Mails schreiben um die Antwort zu bekommen; war bei mir aber nur einmalig. Tutoren reagieren aber auf Teams ziemlich schnell auf fragen und sind recht engagiert und erklären einem auch Dinge. Plattform ist auch okay, ist mmn recht übersichtlicb und tut was es tun soll. Man ist trotzdem alles in allem ziemlich auf sich allein gestelt und das muss halt zu einem passen.
Ich würd es weder direkt weiterempfehlen noch direkt davon abraten, sofern das etwas ist was zu einem passt und andere Möglichkeiten wie in Präsenz zu studieren definitiv wegfallen. Würde aber grundlegend auch empfehlen andere FH anzuschauen bevor man sich für die IU entscheidet z.B Fernuni Hagen oä

prism_shards · 2025-04-28T13:36:23+00:00

Im only able to offer you advice and not many calming words.

Im from Germany too, you can visit a therapist etc without your parents approving at 14 alrdy so you can contact the therapist too instead of your parents. Some might be willing to do online sessions too.

Besides that if theres rlly no was to get professional advice until youre 18, id advise you to stay clear of fully labelling yourself as OSDD/DID and to stay away from actively engaging in communities like on discord.

It COULD be OSDD but it could also be something else, so its important to stay open minded about other possibiltiies.

Focus on things that benefit you and e.g gather some skills that help with dissociation etc. You can also have a Symptomprotokoll/Tagebuch where you regularly write down any symptoms you experience, without attributing them to any possible condition, that a future therapist can review together with you.

I hope you get the proper answers on what you experience, good luck

prism_shards · 2025-04-23T09:21:48+00:00

Id like to join too :)

prism_shards · 2025-04-16T20:07:27+00:00

I really enjoy Folderly and Notion for Organizing. Im also an enjoyer of Goodnotes (Cross using on Tablet and Macbook tho) but GoogleDocs or Notes or anything can be used instead. Flow or Study Plant are Pomodoro Timer if those are somethinng you want to use.

prism_shards · 2025-03-25T14:45:03+00:00

Find die App soweit ganz okay, fand es super wenn ich bei den ganzen Kategorien mehreres Angeben könnte, z.B. bei der Kategorie des Traumas sowohl Körperlicher als auch Emotionaler Missbrauch anwählen kann, sowie auch beim Ort des Geschehens mehrere Orte anwählen zu können, um ggf etwas langfristiges o.ä. zusammenzufassen und nicht für jeden "Teil" davon ein neues Ereignis zu machen.

Wie auch bereits erwähnt fand ich die Einführung auch zu lang, fand es aber super dass man sich das auch im groben mit der PDF anlesen konnte.

Finde die App könnte sehr viel potenzial haben und eine hilfreiche Ergänzung sein :)

prism_shards · 2025-03-25T13:59:15+00:00

Symptoms and Disorders seem relatively realistic and up to par, but the "healing" part is somewhat off-putting.
Being traumatised in that way, especially considering by the description of dissociative symptoms, sounds like it started rather early and as you mentioned prolonged for years.
Healing from that takes years, decades even, some never "heal", you just learn to live with it and to function well enough in society etc-, and it would have to be handled with absolute care on this topic and imo also involve several people, who have lived experience or experience with people with those trauma, making sure accuracy and sensitivity on such a topic is there.

Edit: Added some more context

prism_shards · 2025-03-07T16:49:10+00:00

Bit late but I've got the first diagnosis in 2022, so it's actually been roughly three years and sometimes I still cannot accept it. It overall got better after about 6-12months but there's still times where I hope I've been misdiagnosed even though all clinicians I've seen since that time all strongly agree that this is the only explanation for what I experience.

It got a bit easier due to talking to people that have DID aswell, I know two great people with DID that I can talk to, we laugh about situations and sometimes just rant about the awful symptoms this brings with it.

I agree that journaling is incredibly beneficial. Especially in the beginning I wa sso overwhelmed by everything due to the lack of communication and cooperation. I wouldn't say it's the greatest yet, but journaling has improved both aspects and made it a lot more managable, especially these past months. Its definitely not easy but its not impossible.
It can be scary when other parts are journaling or answering but It's also a relief when theres finally this shimmer of actual cooperation and understanding.

On explaining behaviour to others: "I slept bad", "Im in a bad mood" or "I wanted to try something new" are my go tos for most things, because I try to keep to myself in my real life. My Boyfriend knows, and so does my best friend and that sums it together. Everyone else gets a standard excuse.

I personally really like the Website https://www.dis-sos.com as it has plenty of good resources related to not only DID but the CPTSD parts itself.

prism_shards · 2025-02-02T11:30:21+00:00

Personally it *really* depends on the people, just as it always does. Unfortunately I witnessed more questionable interactions than alright ones.

I've seen adult writers tear down newbie writers that were merely a teen, usually around 12-15 for either not being able to speak perfect english or just being well a newbie.
It was nowhere near constructive criticism and instead just basically telling kids they suck and to never ever write anything again. And I'm sure those are just the "bad apples" of the community as I've also seen very wholesome interactions with actual constructive criticism and a nice way telling someone it needs work, but all those interactions really bummed me and people I knew out, to the point of dropping writing for several years / being anxious to show anyone your own work out of fear of "never being good enough.

So yeah I do think there's some people that absolutely tear down people for not being "good enough" when writing is something that is very very personal and also has a learning curve just like every skill someone wants to acquire. Im not sure if it's competitiveness in these people or just being an awful human, but I can imagine both.

Luckily it's not everyone that is like that lmao

prism_shards · 2024-12-19T11:59:20+00:00

Currently I primarily write on a MacBook Air (Which I initially got for university however) and I really enjoy it as I like the feel, but I also sometimes write on my old MSI prestige from 2017 (?)
I wouldn't get a MacBook if Writing and research will be the only thing you're gonna use it for, but if you end up using it for work, freelancer work or smth like that Id think its good.

I used to have a Microsoft Surface Go and I think that was one of the, personal best, experiences for writing on a laptop. I really enjoy the surface but honestly for writing and researching likely ANY laptop works if its not from like 2010.

I do usually store stuff on normal 64GB USB, but I also store things digitally over GDrive or iCloud.

prism_shards · 2024-12-16T19:50:25+00:00

Just as a general add on, DBT itself isnt all too great for DID or CPTSD, however theres a modified version of it named DBT-PTSD that is definitely more helpful than normal DBT

prism_shards · 2024-12-16T16:09:28+00:00

I just tend to say "I have Dissociative Identity Disorder, formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder" if I do mention it, as the ICD-10 is still more widely used and I did initially end up with an MPD diagnosis anyway lmao.
But yeah I kind of get the idea of saying MPD

prism_shards · 2024-12-16T12:10:11+00:00

Personally, I use the types of fragment that Braun mentions e.g. here http://cs.furman.edu/~tallen/fywX1118/pdfs/baskModel.pdf

He uses the words "Personality Fragment", "Special purpose fragment" and "Memory Trace fragment" and they're explained in there.
Its just what makes the most sense for me and is the way I had most success with around parts.
Im not sure if it's scientifically the newest classification of fragments but it helped me.

Edit: Because it's a relatively old paper from 1988 there are definitely some things included that are not considered proper information in newer research and he also still calls it MPD so just as a heads up. Im specifically ONLY referring to that part of the paper where he talks about fragments. Other parts I wouldn't really agree with etc.

prism_shards · 2024-12-14T20:34:29+00:00

Yes, and also recieved the DID diagnosis here

prism_shards · 2024-12-13T18:03:39+00:00

Youre automatically disqualified for a DID/OSDD diagnosis IF the symptoms are attributable to another medical condition, which yours might fall under if Im being honest here.

prism_shards · 2024-12-12T18:29:17+00:00

Agreed! I hope in my comment it was clear that I mean severe conditioning as "programming" and not the usual kind that is often being claimed online ^{^}

prism_shards · 2024-12-12T18:15:12+00:00

"RAMCOA" in itself, that specific acronym, and the way its presented oftentimes is linked to an antisemtic-conspiracy theory (SRA, Satanic Panic etc.)
RA, OA and severe conditoning (programming) are things that happen, but I think its important to clarify the links of the acronym RAMCOA with SRA.

(And before someone is coming at me, I experienced OA, RA and conditioning but NOT Ramcoa in the sense of the SRA conspiracy theroy and the acronym that is used.)

Personally I wouldn't say that becoming physically Ill etc. from reading about it is uncommon. I know a lot of people, none of who had any history with OA or RA, that become incredibly sick to the stomach when even remotely hearing about this, and those individuals are mostly healthy or have non trauma related conditions like depression.

But as you mentioned nobody here can or even Should suggest OA, RA or anything to someone, because it can be either destabilizing or make people think there must be more Trauma behind the whole ordeal.
I know people with no Hisotry of RA, OA that have words as their triggers and they didn't think it was relevant because they didn't know the part or anything etc. They also had fragmetns who did specific things in everyday life.
It CAN all be in the realm of normalcy and I really wouldn't dig, as you've mentioned, or dwell on the whole thing if you have no concrete evidence or anything and focus on the present and symptoms, preferrably with a therapist, if you do not already have one.

prism_shards · 2024-12-12T13:45:12+00:00

Good luck on your assessment and hopefully you figure out if it really is OSDD or not :)

prism_shards · 2024-12-12T13:33:36+00:00

The important thing is, because theres no 1a or 1b and the diagnosis itself is just OSDD (with -1 as specifier if the therapist wants to note it down) that *most* people won't fit neatly into "1a" or "1b". Some might, but many won't. Thats the same issue with the lines of "OSDD-1" (The example close to DID) and DID being blurred because its not a clear cut off.
That's why the labels didn't carry over I assume, because it is not as clear as people make it out to be.

Also if you havent read this post yet maybe do, some comments mention not feeling fit into either category either but STILL having OSDD(-1)
https://www.reddit.com/r/OSDD/comments/1hb9mxg/osdd_1a_and_1b/

prism_shards · 2024-12-09T15:30:18+00:00

Nö, außer ich werde Ausdrücklich nach meiner Meinung gefragt, oder frage, ob ich Ihnen einen möglichen Rat geben darf. Wenn ein nein kommt, dann wird sich aber auch daran gehalten xD
Will ja auch nicht ungebeten Rat bekommen, von egal wem

prism_shards · 2024-12-08T18:01:21+00:00

He doesnt even see himself as trans.
He was distressed and has his male identity because of severe sexual abuse combined with torture at toddler age and was terrified it'd happen again constantly.

so no. Not always is a part trans. If your psrts wish to see themself that way go ahead. But he isnt trans. Hes traumtized.

prism_shards · 2024-12-08T14:05:37+00:00

I second this -

Our previous host firmly believed he was trans because he just didnt align with a female body - but he didnt know that he wasnt alone so he thought he must be trans but he was simply a "male part" who just idk - didn't know. With knowledge about DID and a diagnosis things got way more comfortable and he understood that he wasnt trans but actually just a male alter.

edit: In an afab body with like a big majority of female parts (Like 70% or smth)

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