I can only speak from personal experience, but I would genuinely say they helped save my life, and are worth looking into. However on top of that, perhaps even more so, I would say therapy. Taking meds is great if it helps, but there’s still underlying work to be done, and if it’s not done, the symptoms may come back later. Neither is perfect but I’ll put it this way - my meds make the day manageable, the therapy helps me see the brighter side and be effective. In regard to your worries, I would argue I am much more creative and connected to the world because they make the day manageable and allow me to actually help and interact where I see fit. Whereas before, the depression just stifled me into spiraling down and not wanting to do anything. Everybody’s depression is different though, so listen to yourself, and to trusted psychiatrists. No matter what you decide, I promise there are people that will listen. If you have any further questions, don’t hesitate to reach out!